I sat with my dad on the verge of the road, near the car. The night was cold and clear and the stars were falling like rain. "I wonder if there are other worlds," said dad, "Or if this is the only one?" The next day we visited the observatory. We stood in line and, one by one, were allowed to look through the giant telescope. "The planet you can see now is four million light years away," said the guide, "We believe it is...
What if I stopped being annoyed when people don’t follow the rules? What if I didn’t feel compelled to comment when a conversation didn’t include me? What if I just turned up the volume on the television or radio when the speed demon toddler starts to race back and forth over my head? What if I didn’t interrupt my husband while he was telling a story to correct the details? What if I didn’t feel resentment toward a few si...
Traveling in a formation three AWACS aircraft passed overhead. Flying westerly towards home base. All volunteers. All part of a team. How does a loner fit into a team. He was always alone. Friendly. Not willing to be close. She was an echo in the shell of eccentricity. Where did her music come from. Walking in the rain. Umbrella in hand. Smoking a cheap cigar. Alone. You served. You volunteered. Even then you walked alon...
How did those maple leaves get in your bathtub?Meh. I don’t know.Shrug shrug. What would you like to have for dinner?Meh. I dunno.Shrug shrug. Did you enjoy the movie last night?Meh. Sheesh.Eye roll.I thought the movie was rather boring and am thinking of making sushi for dinner. I wonder if I have any seaweed sheets. I need ginger too, of course. Wait! Where are you going? Meh. I dunno.Shrug shrug.Sigh……..
It's crazy what you can find inside your mind sometimes. Scary, at the very least, and yet it comes in rhymes. Sometimes. I stepped up to someone I thought I knew, but it wasn't you. You knew it too. Didn't you? I fell into a colorful dream of dark and grey misbeliefs and thought I'd thought of everything. Inside I silently scream. Restlessness inside this day, wishing you could take it all away until I pray and pray. Ple...
Sometimes I guess I am selfish, denying what is true. Or could be true. So many things have no definitive answers that I go crazy. But not technically crazy. I have been tested after all. So many tests. No actual answer. I'm fine. "You're fine." I get that "result" all the time. Everyone must see bright lights and hear high pitched whistles like those of a steam train that runs right through your brain. I am not clinicall...
'Twas the week before Christmas, when all through the townNot a shopper was smiling, they each wore a frown;The cars they were parked in their bays willy-nilly,Whilst pedestrians dashed to-and-fro running silly;The children were screaming for this toy or thatWhilst their grandparents scanned for milk allergies and fat;And mammas in Ugg boots and dads in bad sweaters,They fast-scanned "Dear Santa, I want..." in kids' lette...
The snow was frozen, sparkling in the moonlight.What have I done? How did I lose sight? Did I walk away from the fight that night when you told me not to run? When will our time come? After I begged you to take flight.Broken promisesInside I screamWake me from this dreamWhen I get lost amongst the willingly tossed will you hear me shout your name? Will it sound the same as it did before when death was there beating down t...
I wonder if everyone feels all alone sometimes.I wonder if I'd done less drugs, would my mind be clearer? Would I have more answers and less questions?I wonder if I've completely accepted my past enough so to leave it behind.I wonder what that tarot card really means. The outcome is not one I can quite figure out.I wonder if I have any strawberry jelly because it sounds delicious right now. I wonder what the future will b...
Where does the sun goWhen he sneaks away,When the day turns to nightAnd my thoughts fly astrayOn the wings of the whispersThat flit round my head,And the shadows creep upAnd crawl under my bed?What does he see,This bright sun of the mornAs he rides through the heavensWhere angels are bornAnd the stars of dark velvetFling ice chips to cloudsThat soft drift falling snowOn the earth in bright shrouds?How does he feel,Jolly s...
Inspired by the work of Anne Stokes, 'Solstice Gathering'Ariane stood atop the castle battlements and looked out across the heavily wooded landscape that stretched far into the distance as far as she could see. It was the twenty-first day of December in the year of our Lord fourteen hundred and twenty-three. All along the castle walls, torches flared, casting an eerie flickering light but still she stood, watching, waitin...
I found some footprints in the snow. Although I didn’t know where they would go, I followed them just the same. The snowstorm in my brain makes me ask once again, am I sane? Will the footprints ever stop and reach a destination? My tormented soul following in isolation. I know I can’t go on, how long have I been gone? Following the footsteps of someone, something, without meaning. Wondering why there is no intervening. No...
A day filled with lots of pain, No call to ask how I am.This marriage is under strain,To me it's a total sham.You seem not to care,I give it my complete all.Thank God, for my emotional affair,I feel like all I do is talk to a wall. I had major work done yesterday,I asked you for a goddamn can of soup.I have an infection with major decay,You didn't jump through any hoops. Of course, I made you a nice dinner,And still asked...
When the words cut off, my lips quiver with the thought of what else, I can say. As I pour my heart out all over this blank screen, I can't help but wonder what purpose I have for doing this. I don't even know what feelings I stir up with these words, these thoughts, these emotions. Just a knotted mess within this empty head, I follow one string, but it is stuck in a loop. I want to tell stories and not just some any old...
If I asked you to love me Would you give me all your days Or would you slowly slip away Never to see me again If I told you how deep my love was Would you throw it in my face Laugh and mock at me Then give me public disgrace If I asked to share your name Because I never had one of my own Would you give it freely Or make me long to know If I simple disappeared Left without a trace Would you look for me my darling Search ev...
