Chapter 1 Atticus sat with his friends at Pizza Hut, the atmosphere buzzing with excitement and relief after they had all successfully passed their final exams. The aroma of freshly baked pizza and the sound of cheerful chatter filled the air as they indulged in a well-deserved celebration. Atticus was described as an athletic-built young man with milky white skin, raven black hair styled straight to his shoulders with a...

Who is the one that through the seasons, is the same? Who is the one that will take the blame? Who is the one that will carry the shame? Who is the one that left the embers inside aflame? What will it take to shed the tiniest tear? What could I do to make my own morbidity disappear? What have I done to warrant your malicious fear? What would make my compass clear? Where would I be, without you inside of me? Where would I...

---“It’s not him, is it, Jack? It’s just not him.” My mother’s despairing words were a mournful poem that reverberated inside my head whenever I visited the hospital. She was so right. The wizened shell inhabited by something totally alien was a parody of the father I had known. Those chafing images implanted in my head threatened to bury the good that had gone before. Sitting there, in that clinical cleanliness, the odou...

  Drinking my coffee, trying to remember. ... your voice ... your touch ... your laughter. As I sit, looking out our window. You come back to me. Deep from my heart. You gave me a squeeze. ... why ... why Have you left me. Drinking my coffee, looking out our window. Still I am looking, for answers. ... why ... why Have you gone?  

Right on time you're on my mind, it happens every day The love I lost, the pain I feel since you went away   You hid your feelings, so I never knew the things I said were hurting you   Without warning, it was over you found yourself a new life   I was no longer your husband you no longer my wife   True love comes from the heart, and so it is with me It's with that love and with that heart that I set you free      

I am sorry. There is little more that I can say. I was not the man you thought I was. In a better world, I would have loved you from afar, crying as I saw you pair up with another but seeing you happy. I have always known that I was different and not in a good way. You deserved someone who could support you and hold your trust. I, clearly, am not that man. Sooner or later, I drive everyone away.I cannot forgive myself for...

They say that happiness is a choice  I don't recall ever saying I don't want to be happy  If happiness is a choice, doesn't that mean that depression is too?  When standing in the line, I don't remember ever saying "yeah I decided I don't wanna see the light anymore.  I want to feel like I'm walking down a dark hall for the rest of my life  I never want to know when the light will flicker back on  I never want to see a br...

Some days are worse than othersBut just the same, some days are better than othersAnd when there not a lot goes through my mind I feel like I'm not enough Or like what I do won't make a differenceI feel like my world falls apart and every single turn I take will be my destruction I feel And when I feel I hurtOn these days, looking in a mirror is hard On these days, loving is hard Feeling is hard Being alive is hard I push...

I no longer need to makemarks on meA professional who tattooshas set me freeWhen certain thoughtsreturn and intrudeback into my lifefor reasons unknownI try to quiet themappease, silence the poisonbut I am unable to stop or copeI wear a myriad of scarsSelf-inflicted not that long agoShocking and saddening myselffamily and friends at a timewhen I was so very lowThe voices had quietedover the yearsLately, so many stressesan...

 A LETTER TO AN IMPRISONED OBSESSOR.  I gave you my heart but not my mind even though I had always lost myself in your presence, you had me, you took me, you used me, but because I had always lost myself in your presence, you could not find the real me, and you lost me. Where do I even begin to describe the feeling I had when my eyes first saw those almond shaped hazel brown eyes of yours, I was once asked to let out and...

Like a waterfallcrashing downa never-ending streamof tearsa hollowed chestwhere oncea heart beat stoodhangs a vacated signlove is all he soughtsomeoneto hold himtell him all will be alrighta womanof any descriptionto speak tenderwordsan angelwings so blackcold runningthrough his veins nowvoiceswhisper withinhis broken mindsuch bad wordscrimsonseeps from woundsso he canfeel againemotionsintensified to insanitydriven by act...

Whispers float in my ear and singAbout so many hurts and other thingsLies, truths, does it matter now A friend was all I wanted for meTo laugh with, to just beWas it too much to askTo hope it would last Stretched between twoStories, gossip, from both of youConfusion abounds in this placeI'm not a prize to win after a race I'm only me, mixed up and blueFor now, I've run out of glueBack to thoughts I had kickedBlood drips s...

A person looks fine with Bipolar Except they have highs and lows They lose all their composure Their moods come, and they go One day they're on a manic high In a minute they could crash Thoughts of death and suicide These feeling happen in a flash Most like to self-medicate Their medications bring them down This is genetic and is their fate No smiles and only frowns Their moods are all over the place Yet they're very crea...

We met online and had a thing One day you just leftWe never ended our flingI'm really not impressedEmotions you let decideYour decision had no regard for meNo more sadness or tears criedI suppose we're both now freeI loved you each and every dayToday perhaps a bit lessI wish you did it another wayI guess you were stressedEach day we chatted about lifeSweet words crafted to each otherYou were single and I was a wifeWe were...

Yes the truth is I'm torn I got a chance to make  Make it better than ever  You're stuck in a loop Wearing smile of disgrace It's happiness you fake You're with him but miss me Say words so divine Say we'll make it together When we start it's not the time Where do I go from here What if things change  What would you say Truth is I look deep inside Hope that my fears are lies I fear you'll stay  never come my way I wanna s...