There is a certain vagueness, a feeling of ‘not being there’ that is heavily associated with dreaming, whether that be daydreaming or night-time dreaming or even with nightmares; you know that feeling, you’ve experienced it yourself. It comes more so in the waking moment than in the dream itself. You know you have had a dream and that it was only that, just a dream and nothing more. I only really fully remember one dream...

I want to see your eyes smile at me I want to feel your hand taking mine I want you to hold me in your arms To feel your shake as I take you in mine I want my name upon your lips  As I say your name also I want your voice in my ear and your breath upon my skin I want to feel your lips upon me To feel your need for me and me only I want your smell upon me and your taste inside me I want to wake each morning with you in my...

A quiet day to myself, dinner alone at a table for two, days without contact with another soul I avoid stepping outside at all, until I want even base interaction, and have to force myself to be social I’ll cut myself off for today, and ignore the world outside me, only to reach out to anyone come tomorrow All this seems so normal, the result of choices I made, the consequence of mistakes one too many I recoil from a simp...

I recently saw one of my students and could not believe my eyes. Was this the same little girl I had in my classroom for four years? The one with the hair pulled down around her face and no smile? Yes, except this girl was not hiding. She was smiling and had her hair pulled back. She was beautiful. She came over, smiling, and as I was bending down to hug her she laughed and said she wanted me to meet someone. Just as I lo...

My heart flutters at the thought of you. My mind wanders of you while I seek the stars. My dreams are filled with your presence. I want you, I need you but I don't love you. My body aches for yours. As yours does for mine. My dreams torment me so. I wake to find myself alone. I care for you but you don't for me. I ache and want you so bad. This is lust and nothing more. Once you have me, my mind will be at peace. Take me...

As an unborn child, I had no place. Not a legal name. Not even a trace of who I was or where I came from. As a child growing up I never belonged. The other had families... I had a check coming every month to keep my mouth shut. I paid for my friends. I always had plenty money. I gave as they asked without any hurry. As I grew into the woman I am now, not any wiser most would say, I have always loved you and love you with...

They say the eyes are the portal to your soul. What do you see when you look into my eyes? Look deeply and know my thoughts and my desires. Am I weak and easily taken advantage of? Am I strong and can get through any obstacle life throws in my way? Do you see pain or do you see triumph? I see a woman begging to be touched delicately. Whose heart has been torn from her chest time and time again, yet survived. I see the des...

what am I when I'm not with you? what can I do without you? you should know my need my need for you! I need you now, I need you always things aren't ever the same when the things are done with you you guide me through I can't go on without you you make me wholeI'm nothing without you dont leave come back don't go I need you I can't go on alone

Scatter me on the wind Let me drift away Across a world gone mad Let me disappear into the void Float across space Let me burn up in the sun Immolate me in fire And let me be reborn As something new Something innocent Take away the pain That shrouds my heart Take away the need That fills my soul Show me what it is to be brave To live free To wander and wonder At all there is And at all there will ever be Let me see the wo...

Strikes at the heart and oft times will not release mefor days I brood, my world a small focus inside my head At times no bigger than myself and the world just fades away. I lock myself away, not literally, just emotionally, Shut off all my receptors, ignore those that matter, those that care Lose myself in the unquiet of my mind and float in a Seething mass of unhelpful feelings. Dreams and wishes jump at me, Wants and n...

loving hard is hardly love. Taken by, Shattered by, Broken by love. Wanting, needing, making, love. The prick, The sting,  The art of love. Skin. Forever. Hide, The shame, Swallow the burn of the tears, Of love. Got to learn the fear of love. Be defeated, before completed by, love. No... Just know you are a creation of LOVE. Perfect imperfection.