Friday the 13th?! Other than a series of semi-scary movies (one through five actually terrified me once upon a time) today is just another day. Right? I don’t understand all the hokey “bad luck day” nonsense. I’d ask Google if my internet worked. It went out this morning. As did my cell service. Luckily I had nothing better to do today than sleep. Okay. That isn’t entirely true. I did have to go to the bank and do some de...

 Okay, fine! I will admit it then. Here goes. I am an addict. Are you happy now? No? Well, what else do you want from me? (Heavy sighs, eye rolls, stomping my feet) My story? Why? You think you can fix me, don'tcha? Well guess what? I'm not fucking broken!   Maybe I am slightly damaged. Slightly. Damaged? Aren't we all? Except for you, of course. You have somehow managed to live 40 years without so much as a scratch on yo...

This, hopefully, will be my last rant about Irma Tuesday 9.12.17 4:20 pm ESTIrma has finished her dance with the sunshine state. She hovered over Naples for hours pummeling them with rain and devastating winds. She even left a storm surge of about 3 feet. The last time I saw Irma's location was Sunday night around 9:15 right before we saw sparks flying out our sliding glass doors followed by a loud POP. Then, darkness and...

***These are random thoughts I have while waiting for Hurricane Irma. At the time of these writings Irma's projected path shows her coming straight for me! I don't know what to do while I wait so I just keep writing***Saturday 9.9.17 10:30 pm ESTTom Petty wasn't lying!The waiting is, by far, the hardest part. It's been 24 hours since I wrote my last "entry" or whatever. About Irma. Ughhh I HATE HER! I just shouted that ou...

I'm sitting here in Southwest Florida, mere feet from the Gulf of Mexico. I live here. I've lived here for 30 years and have never been this scared.There is a storm coming. A huge storm. Hurricane Irma. She is 400 miles of catastrophic wind and will bring storm surges over 12 feet high. I feel like I am waiting to die. We all are. My family. My love. My life. Waiting. Why don't I head north? I'll never make it to safety b...

How did those maple leaves get in your bathtub?Meh.  I don’t know.Shrug shrug. What would you like to have for dinner?Meh. I dunno.Shrug shrug. Did you enjoy the movie last night?Meh. Sheesh.Eye roll.I thought the movie was rather boring and am thinking of making sushi for dinner. I wonder if I have any seaweed sheets. I need ginger too, of course. Wait! Where are you going? Meh. I dunno.Shrug shrug.Sigh…….. 

It's crazy what you can find inside your mind sometimes. Scary, at the very least, and yet it comes in rhymes. Sometimes. I stepped up to someone I thought I knew, but it wasn't you. You knew it too. Didn't you? I fell into a colorful dream of dark and grey misbeliefs and thought I'd thought of everything. Inside I silently scream. Restlessness inside this day, wishing you could take it all away until I pray and pray. Ple...

It all seems silly nowWhere I once stood firmIt's not a place at allIt took this long to learnPerhaps with jaded perceptionI created an alternate stateA place that withstood timeAnd so I was never lateDoesn't that sound great?But something happenedI allowed myself to loveI nurtured and protectedDespite words said aboveI made so called friendsAnd I let my love showI allowed myself to feelUntil reality had to let me goI fel...

The plan has always beenThat this is not part of the planStill, we stand where we standAnd I will forever hold your handBut this is not part of the planIt’s so hard to describeSo no one understandsThis cannot be plannedThis feel withstandsThrough threats and remandsI will always understandAnd things I’ll always knowLike it will continue to growIt is so awesome thoughAnd if you didn’t knowYour touch ignites the greatest  g...

Sometimes I guess I am selfish, denying what is true. Or could be true. So many things have no definitive answers that I go crazy. But not technically crazy. I have been tested after all. So many tests. No actual answer. I'm fine. "You're fine." I get that "result" all the time. Everyone must see bright lights and hear high pitched whistles like those of a steam train that runs right through your brain. I am not clinicall...

Decades passedNothing lastsEverything changesVarying stagesAbsolute lifeChaotic strifeDo some things never change?Chasing demonsCollecting leminsLovings lostSoulless accostEnduring supportEndless retortDoes anything stay the same? Staggering endsPassing friendsWords unspokenTrusty tokenJilted heartsFalsified startsIt seems everything must changeEternal needsSowing seedsRavaged lustGrandiose trustRestless shiversCarefree w...

Why did you come hereWhat is it that you fearWhy do you vanishAnd then suddenly reappear Why did you pick meDid you think I'd not seeThe weakness in youOr this living hypocrisy Perhaps you saw it in meItching and begging to be freeWelcomed with open armsNo longer some huge mystery Here we are, together at lastStuck trying to erase the pastNow I have a partnerTo help throw what I can not cast I wish I had you to blameI hop...

The snow was frozen, sparkling in the moonlight.What have I done? How did I lose sight? Did I walk away from the fight that night when you told me not to run? When will our time come? After I begged you to take flight.Broken promisesInside I screamWake me from this dreamWhen I get lost amongst the willingly tossed will you hear me shout your name? Will it sound the same as it did before when death was there beating down t...

Is it fateHow we relateWhen things are greatWe celebrateWe shift and spinHonoring our winIgnoring our sinsThe darkness withinThere is no painFor me to explainNo way to complainWhen we've gone insaneGoing day by dayIs there any other wayShould I simply stayIs it time to walk awayPerhaps a little napA voyage sans mapNo arms around me wrapNo love to fill the gapUntilWe shift one againRushing through our veinsWe find ourselve...

Am I lostWithin the explanationOutside our destinationHave I foundA common inspirationDevoid of complicationCould it beJust my imaginationOf mutual admirationWhere to nextWithout hesitationMaintained by predicationNow I seeAmong the sublimationMy own lucid fascinationCome with meEnjoy this libationAnd peaceful acclimation