I was always scared    I never knew what direction to go in   Fearing what lies ahead and how someone would treat me    Scared of love and passion    It could be from past experiences    Well it is from past experiences but I hate to admit that    I’d like to say I’m strong, that I don’t let it bother me    Truth is, I’ve missed out on plenty of relationships due to it    Truth is, I’ve been so distant in the ones I do ha...

They say that happiness is a choice  I don't recall ever saying I don't want to be happy  If happiness is a choice, doesn't that mean that depression is too?  When standing in the line, I don't remember ever saying "yeah I decided I don't wanna see the light anymore.  I want to feel like I'm walking down a dark hall for the rest of my life  I never want to know when the light will flicker back on  I never want to see a br...

Some days are worse than othersBut just the same, some days are better than othersAnd when there not a lot goes through my mind I feel like I'm not enough Or like what I do won't make a differenceI feel like my world falls apart and every single turn I take will be my destruction I feel And when I feel I hurtOn these days, looking in a mirror is hard On these days, loving is hard Feeling is hard Being alive is hard I push...

I'm told I'm too picky I'm told to lower my standardsTo stop wanting what I want I'm told my type is too rare and that I will never find that My type? I don't have a type  I mean if you count human qualities a type then I guess I do  I want him to love me whole heartedly  I want him to show me off as if I'm his most prized possession  I want him to smile at me like all he can see is me  I want to know he cares and he love...

I was told I couldn't love anyone if I didn't love myselfBut that's not what my heart says when I look at a picture of you That's not what my mind says when I hear your nameThat's not what my body says when I react to your touch I never loved myself My thoughts would always just consume me, and I would give up Waking up to a message from you puts a smile on my face each and every day from the moment I woke up to the momen...

Lie down with me It's the only place where I feel safeWhere all that can be heard is our breath mixing together as we whisper sweet nothing into the wind Our hearts beating as one as if that's all they were meant to do As if that's what they lived for Happiness in your arms is all I want and I feel while surrounded by your warmth It's the only place where I can think clearlyMy thought no longer clouded by the doubt and fe...

I was so young when I had those thoughts "I'm ugly." I looked at the stretch marks and the acne, and I wouldn't pick out one thing that I likedI saw my thighs and envied the girls with thigh gaps I saw my lips and wanted them to be fuller My hips were too wide My hands were too smallMy eyes weren't a pretty color I hated my noseMy face was way too red And I couldn't stand the way that I laughed One day I was looking in th...

It was our first date  Lights dim and plates full Perfect words spoken at just the right time He said everything I wanted him to say He did everything I hoped that he would do  He walked me to my door like the perfect gentleman He even held the door open for me while I got in the car But no matter what was happening, all I could think of was you Your image engraved into my mind as if you were there since the beginning You...

"Beauty is pain" Or at least that's what we were taught to believe.  So we get up and work on the painting that is our faces.  We don't sleep enough, but that's okay. That's what's concealer is for.  We don't have that perfect jaw line but it's okay, we can just contour.  Our cheeks aren't pink enough, so we pack on some blush.  Our lips aren't full enough, so we overdraw.  We don't like our eye brows, so we shave them of...

You keep me on the edge of my seat You never try and shoot me downYou always know just what to say To keep a smile on my faceI'm singing please don't leave me on my own cause you're the one I wanna adore Please don't leave me by myself on my journey to who I become I may not know what I'm gonna be but I know that I want you there with me Please don't leave me I always seem to be on my toesNever knowing which direction you...

Some people feel the need to end their life, I don't understand why. I know I've felt this way and sometimes I was so close to actually doing it. The thing is, I know that maybe one day living will be worth the struggle and hopefully all the things that I've gone through, or that you've gone through, will all be worth it. I'm not saying that it will for sure be worth it and I'm not saying that one day no problems will com...

He said he loved meAnd then he leftHe promised he wouldn'tAnd then he left I said I loved himAnd then he left I thought he didn't And then he leftWe planned our life And then he left He kissed me And then he left I was always thereAnd then he left I stayed where we were And then he left I gave him the worldBut he still left

Pool of blood all on the floorYou'll be missed? Not even sureEvery word I hear that's toldSeems to surprise my damaged soulThe things you say and things I hear Seem to be the thing I fearYou told me once now tell me twice What's the reason for my cries Locked and loaded here we goThere's only one last thing to doAfter my last curtain call Pull the trigger and down I fall.

Temptation You're like a drug that I could never get enough of You say my name it's like music to my ears You can't erase all of the things that you've done Well that's the thing I don't want you to change You're my temptation Just a little taste and I can't get enough You're like seduction You make me want to say yes You're like a song you can't help but repeat You can't even see what you've done to me It's like I've bee...

A piece of rope Tied to a knot Secured to a ceiling fan Or a tree branch Maybe a random board below the ceiling Standing on a chair Thinking of all the misery Thinking of all the pain Think of it this way It's a necklace But there's a twist You jump Don't worry It'll catch you Look to the door See that no ones coming and you jump