I have read and reread stories I have written, Of people and of places that once had meaning.It seems as though there is a disconnectAs I can no longer feel the emotion in those moments. But I have kept a track record of every hill I've crossed,I have pages and pages of tear streaked memoriesEmbedded innuendos and unanswered pleas.A child to a woman in the blink of an eye. I look at my life and I often question my intenti...

Something stops me.There is something I need to tell you,But how can I even start to say,the many many things that cross my mindAs I think about all that we have been through. I guess to begin - is to look at you.From the first moment that we metYou loved me and gave me all of youThis beautiful woman,willing to bet it all on me. There has always been a steady murmur,It emits from you like a calming beatIt has engulfed my...

Surrender Today I finally surrender.... To the fact that I do not have all the answers,That what once may have been - no longer is. I submit to the fact that what I believed to be an inner knowledge - is the voice of projection I admit that I have used the words of a hypocriteAnd the actions of one who is self-absorbed I see now that I have not been a present friendPointing fingers and expecting results I surrender to my...

FUSIONIt's plain as day to all who seebut never have I ever felt this way.And for methere is a refusal to acceptthat which will free mebut,am I willing to lose everything for a promise of nothing?Never have I experiencedwhat ignites inside of mewith your touch,no control when I am with youAndNothing could be sweeterYet for every moment of lovethere is greaterhatedisdain and dysfunctionsometimes I guess that justfeels like...

Lately I have come to understand, That one of the most frustrating things, Is that I will never be able to make you see, The world In which I am found.   I can not open you to what I believe for You can not feel the wind that blows around me And you can not hear the calls of the lost souls  Your voices tell you a different Truth, who am I to say they are wrong?   It hurts to know that we will never share That momentary br...

Frustration and Confusion Screeching and hollering from the inner parts of my soul, just another like every other,and I think this fire may finally burn through. How many times will it all come tumbling downbefore I realize that this is it?This is all that the world is and there is no hidden Gem.  When will I learn that the reason walls are builtis because others before me have realized what's taking me so long?The only w...

Ego. Mine. Yours. I want it all to be the same. I want to tell you that I understand. Mine. Believes that it can see right thru. I can see your soul And I want to save you. You. Have pain you think you hide. Scream at the world for the wrong You believe is ours. We. Will never get anywhere. If all we see is one another. Please turn your head, From me. My desire to save you. Will only destroy me. Your pain. Only makes you...

There must be some way of understanding that will remove the fear of a second wave Sitting in the rebuilt glory, of the aftermath Belief that everything can be this calm is wavered out of instinctual protection. But there is a faith in something bigger Trauma still threatens to over take and many days are still spent fighting down  those scars of each self inflicted dagger I often try for descriptive and raw as it is the...