Surrender

Today I finally surrender....
To the fact that I do not have all the answers,
That what once may have been - no longer is.

I submit to the fact that what I believed to be an inner knowledge 
- is the voice of projection

I admit that I have used the words of a hypocrite
And the actions of one who is self-absorbed

I see now that I have not been a present friend
Pointing fingers and expecting results

I surrender to my anger, there is no more fight
And in that I can find my peace.

I surrender to my imperfections that make me human.

I will make mistakes
I will feel jealousy, envy and rage
I will judge - inactively forcing me to actively be aware
I will lie and cheat to get what I may not know I want

But I will also love full-heartily,
I will allow for others to be right,
Constantly try to stand objective from my mind.

And understand I can not change the situations that have scarred me
Nor can I remove the pain I have caused others.

I can only surrender myself back into innocence
And move towards my own happiness.