FUSION
It's plain as day to all who see
but never have I ever felt this way.
And for me
there is a refusal to accept
that which will free me
but,
am I willing to lose everything for a promise of nothing?
Never have I experienced
what ignites inside of me
with your touch,
no control when I am with you
And
Nothing could be sweeter
Yet for every moment of love
there is greater
hate
disdain and dysfunction
sometimes I guess that just
feels like home
It is because of those moments
when it all just fades
away
that I can not imagine anything else
Than spending a day wasting away
with you making love
sweat beading on our skin
In you
I see an undeveloped part of me
and I am always afraid someone might see
What I do not have to hide from you
because you have always seen right through
When it all ends though
who will be the last one standing
I wish there was room for two
but I am told
This story never plays out well
Even if I refuse to remove the fusion bond
If I let you go
it's all the same
you've never completed me
Only gave me an excuse to pretend
That I did not feel incomplete
The habit has become almost too strong
Heartbreak over and over until
there is no more heart left
and I think
that a part of me needs that cold
The removal
of a desire to mend
in you
That which will always be broken in me
Love twisted by unfulfilled hopes and dreams
It turns into a game of
who is to blame
Truth is baby, we both love the fire
And I guess it comes down to
Whether I continue to weather the pain,
or if I freeze up and let the passion die.
