I sat there looking in his eyes.  They focused then looked away, What is happening...why can't you stay? It's not fair and I don't care. I'll be selfish, I want you here. My eyes blink and fill with tears. I hear these idiots in the background. I refuse to turn around. He keeps my gaze and I return it. These last minutes with him I won't forfeit. Find your savior, get your peace...I hear. I say to him...Don't worry, you h...

I was asked yesterday... Why do you do what you do? What makes you make those choices? I look with question in my eyes and confusion on my little lips... You mean my life style? Or what I wore today...I jested. Then my look sobers and I reply, " I am asked all the time either on net or in real life." I pull out my phone and show a picture of my love. Most reactions are a grimace and a look of concern. He (to me) is smilin...

The day I told him I could die, I felt so empty inside The joy and happiness we shared burned to ashes in our mind. How can life make us decide... to live? Or to die. Fate is cruel and destiny warped, the beginning of our adventure seemed like ages ago. When he proudly blog and shared our little bit of joy. Dates posted, pictures showed our little bundle would come with the snow. With summer came heat and worry, but our h...

Laying on my board feeling the water move beneath me, my arms stretched out moving gently across the rippling surface with my chin on the board watching the reflections dance on the surface of the almost perfect glass surface. Perfection...yes, now, but just a few minutes ago I was paddling hard, getting knocked around and fighting to get to this spot. Was it worth it? Lets think.... I prep to get my board ready, park my...