Telephone poles whipped past her, each separate in her headlights but blurred and indistinct. The girl was traveling north. She drove the speed limit along the two-lane federal highway. Into the night she drove once more. Alone, heading towards the big city. The highway stretched out ahead and ghostly phantoms of imaginary treelines wavered in her peripheral vision alongside her route. Occasionally porch lights shone out...
This cell in the womb is alive It needs to be protected too Should it live or die The young mother has no clueShe was raped and held down Unfortunately now pregnant No smiles just frowns This situation not pleasant Should she have an abortion Or give the baby away Would the child be an orphan The decision marks an awful day Her family has so much to say The teen is embarrassed and scared She doesn't want to relive that da...
My mind begins to wanderat the end of each long day;Into the realm of the unknownand the roads along the way; The many choices that I madeas I led my life;I'll always wonder what could have beenif I'd become your wife; The mysteries my decision brought,the things I'll never know;Because the mistake I madethe day I let you go.
Draw me near and cheer meGrace me with your smileLet a veil encircle ‘round Concealing us, a while Let me lean against youStrong and warm and thereRadiating surenessShielded from life’s glare And as your chest enfolds meComfort’s warmth does riseCatching at the core of meLighting in your eyes A shifting of emotionGlints through this tender calmConvergently occurringAs you hold me in your arms Shall we disrupt this beauty?...
Questions I don’t want to askAnswers I don’t want to knowDecisions I don’t want to makePlaces I don’t want to goA life I lived in retrospectChoices that I should have madeChances had but left untakenRegrets untouched until todayActing brave while being frightenedBelieving through vast waves of doubtHold my tongue and quell my urgesQuiet, where I want to shoutLooking back, I know the answersFuture times remain unknownDecid...
Loni wandered around her modest apartment taking inventory. The living room furniture while old was in excellent condition as was her bedroom set. The kitchen table and chairs were from a second-hand store but also in great shape for their age. All had been purchased when money was very tight.She took a seat and poured herself a glass of wine and began to inventory what the moving company would have to haul to Florida; th...
During the following week, Loni did not spend her nights or even see Dan. She had a few papers due that needed her attention, but she did call every evening, and they chatted for hours. On the weekends, she arrived on Friday and stayed until Sunday.It was during the time when he was alone and continued his packing that Dan began to have second thoughts.He was heading to Fort Lauderdale with its warm weather, beautiful bea...
Loni questioned her motives a dozen more times as they walked across the parking lot to their parked cars. She was used to acting on impulse from her younger and carefree days, so this behavior was out of character for her. Was she not older and wiser than she was back then? So why was she acting like a love sick horny teenager?As she followed his dark SUV through the city and into the suburbs, the mature portion of her b...
When Loni arrived home the first thing she noticed was the red light on her answering machine blinking, it told her she had some missed calls. The small light was flashing with the speed of a strobe light, she didn't need to wonder who the calls were from.Without bothering to listen to the messages, she simply picked up the phone and dialed Brad's number."Hello? his voice said when he picked up."Hello yourself," she respo...
Confusion of the heart My soul is aching My heart Hear it breaking You are my heart Always and forever I'm hurting and crying We're no longer together You can't pick and choose I have a choice to make I have to do what's best What option do I take? Contact made at random Making me cry But nothing sent to me And so I cry I don't know why I thought my tears Had run dry Been told to ask you To stop But it makes my heart ache...
Hard to believe How much has changed in a year I was lost and alone And yet had so many people near I thought I wanted to leaveMy marriage of years Even though when I wasn't with him I was always close to tears Convinced I wanted someone else Needed something more But, no matter what , my husband Was the one I adore Living in separate houses I craved sleeping in his arms Couldn't let go As others worked their charms...
In 1996, at the age of 49, I joined the Army National Guard. I had served previously from the ages of 21 to 25 in the United States Navy. Therefore, when I became a soldier, I entered with the rank of Specialist. It was not quite the same as a Corporal, the same pay grade, because Corporals had more prestige, more experience as soldiers. But I had wanted to serve. And I had tried earlier to reenter the service. However, I...
Decisions Cripple our daily thoughtsLoved ones pulling one wayFriends the other DesiresWishing to be a lone manNo one pulling, tearing me upForever tearless DreamsWelcome hiding placeAlternate reality in consolementForever alone DeterminationLocking myself awayFor the love of my descendantForever barred Decisions, no moreDesires, no moreDreams, no moreLife, no more
She lays in bed looking up at the ceiling. Her mind whirls with words said by her "amazing" boyfriend who she's so "perfect" with and the normal events of the day. He was so abusive, verbally and at times physically or sexually. She really just wanted to leave, but what if she never found someone that wanted to be with her again? Of course, being in Psychology, she realizes that that thought is an effect of what he tells...
I’ve lived a very hard life with some easy roads mixed between it. I remember being yelled at by family for telling jokes at a funeral, but I couldn’t help but wonder if the person who died honestly would want all the sobbing and drama to replace the happiness they put in life. I’ve always been viewed as hard and cold, detached even when it comes to death. Or perhaps I just understood it better than religious zealots who...
