Sometimes we laugh and everything is great, Other times it's silence and moods.It's a crap shoot to try to relate,I don't ever want to intrude.I then feel like it's some how my fault,You don't want to talk to me.You put your feelings into a vault,I just want to run and be free.I sit here and wonder are you okay,I smile and give you a kiss.Everything is okay today,We're back to loving bliss.The sun is not shining today; no...

I get so sad in this place,I try to tell you how I feel.Just sleeping and crying in this space,What is the fucking deal?You never deal with things,I ask you things, but then you shout.I feel like I'm hanging off a string,I'm sad and often pout.I'm here until everything calms,This is not even fun.I certainly am plagued with qualms,I often want to leave and run.I just stay and I wait,Seeing what happens; I do care.I'm fille...

Do you ever really meet your soul mate? Or do you just settle and decide your own fate.You find love and create an amazing life,You get married and are a devoted wife.You have an amazing family and lots of friends,But you wonder is this your forever life till the end.The world is so big with so many people in it,Lots of interesting people I hate to admit.You're in your own fish bowl wherever you are,Meeting people closer...

The grass is always greener on the other side,  Which one is better, you must decide. When you are alone, you wish to meet someone,  And if you’re married, sometimes you wish you could run. Decisions, decisions that need to be made,  Either side you can feel lost and betrayed. Being alone you can do whatever,  Going on many exciting endeavors. When you’re married, the family always needs,  Sometimes feels like a freaking...

This musing only available on Stories Space. If you are reading it elsewhere, it has been stolen.They say that there is someone for everyone. If that's the case, then somewhere out there, in that big, wide world, there is a fat, grumpy, depressed, cookie-eating, diet coke-swilling bloke who's pushing forty, whilst wearing stripy socks, glittery shoes, and insisting on throwing bits of gingerbread men out into the sea "for...

This poem only available on Stories Space. If you are reading it elsewhere, it has been stolen.You see my writing on the wallAnd you think you know who I am.Am I splayed out naked for all to see,Or can the breeze-blown reeds only glimpseThe surface where the chaff isDrifting and floating onto the mill race,Only to be lost in the tail past the grinding wheel,Never use nor grace to any bread?For there,In the shallows where...

This poem only available on Stories Space. If you are reading it elsewhere, it has been stolen.This...Existence.ThisMelancholy beat of a spasmodic heartEmpties full thrust intoMires of self-loathing andRues the day thatBorn and bred wereRaised and wed toProduceThis.EmptySorrowsIn the bowl of the beggarWhere pity and scornMingle with incense and onionsTo languish in cob dungeonsThat shun the sunAnd embrace the cold.GatherT...

I don’t know what I’ll do when I can’t do the things I love to do. I don’t know what I’ll say to friends when they stop by. Will I have the strength to care and ask, how are you, what’s new? Or will I look away and stare up at the ceiling, or look out the window, then close my eyes, whispering to myself, “perhaps it’s time to die?” Who knows if I’ll see clouds covering the sun, or will I see the sun setting behind the tre...

I've imagined... An apartment, Pet friendly, College in the afternoon, Work in the evening,  Snuggling at night, and spending time with you... Sleeping in the morning, doing it all over again. I've imagined... A career as a midwife, Possibly a nurse, Hours will be harsh, Long, Tiring, but I'll come home to you, make dinner, spend time, curl up, and sleep in arms that love me, that I love. I've imagined... A comfy house, A...

There's something I've forgotten;I'm not sure what it could be.Still, it can't be that important,Or it would come to me.There's something nagging sometimes, though,I wonder what it was...A thing? A time? Appointment missed?A Must? A Just Because?Was it maybe Ought To Do?Or maybe Do This Now?Forgotten Thingy, what is it?It's lost (I don't know how).If I return to where I wasWhen last I thought of it,Maybe I'd know? Where w...

I want to close my eyes Clench them tight to stop the Spill of salt water that aches to rush And fill this hollow void inside of me. The world shifts sideways Life revolves and history repeats Over and over the insanity of it Drives me further inside myself. Where is that breath of air I need so desperately Where is that space? The sunlight fades on my yesterday and Fails to rise on my tomorrow. Were I to dance in the lon...

This story only available on Stories Space. If you are reading it elsewhere, it has been stolen.What lonely night is this whenHope comes a-knocking at my door?Her whispers through the oaken barricadePush my dreams into realms of fear.Fear of pain andFear of remembrance;Fear of lonely, sneering echoes;Fear that what I once believed inWill never be my precious gift;Fear that loving, gentle kissesWill never grace my ugly lip...

Here in my lonely heart, Betwixt that narrow moment of light and shadow Wherein lies the truth that is me. Across the blue expanse, in that open space of nothingness Where angels fall and dance across the barrenness of my enduring soul; Rests the small ember that struggles to drift away into darkness, And find within a sea of chaos a small island of tranquillity. Tranquillity? What is tranquillity in this world that roars...

Sick and twisted me Lost in deviant sin The sweet taste of salt The tangy scent of honey Sweat and skin, Water and earth. Sick and deviant me Lost in twisted delight The slap of moving flesh The growl of anguished ecstasy Gasp and breathe Air and fire. Languid soul v. roaring heart Eloquent sigh v. sordid mouth Oh yes, please, Deviant and twisted me. ~ Sweet and delicate me Masked and yet laid bare The innocence of an ang...

Where has all the magic gone? Hearts that shatter and fall. When the future disappears in a shroud of smoke Lost to eyes that once saw it so clearly. Where has all the wonder gone? Souls that fade away. Life that meanders and laughs At the sad little twist it has. I sat upon the mountain, Breathless from the climb And laughed at the wonder of the world Now I sit amongst the many masses Breathless from the tears As I lamen...