I want to close my eyes

Clench them tight to stop the

Spill of salt water that aches to rush

And fill this hollow void inside of me.

The world shifts sideways

Life revolves and history repeats

Over and over the insanity of it

Drives me further inside myself.

Where is that breath of air I need so desperately

Where is that space?

The sunlight fades on my yesterday and

Fails to rise on my tomorrow.

Were I to dance in the lonely gloom

Could I even smile at the sorrow

That runs through my anchored soul

Did I run through a field of brambles

The pain could not compare to the lance

That pierces my struggling heart.

There was a moment, an instant

Where once I was young and free

But the time has been fleeting

And I find myself trapped in a half life

Of midlife

Adrift and

Lost.

How do I find my way back into the light?

When all the exit lights have faded to black...

And I am too scared to stumble in the dark.