I hope God isn't jealous. I look for you in everything I do. I see you in sunsets, Birds flying, Ducks, Arcade games, Tired faces. I hear you. In Eminem songs, In every middle finger, In Victoria's Secret, In Yankee Doodle parodies. Your laugh is a constant echo. I hope God isn't jealous. I talk to you more than I talk to Him. And when I do talk to Him It's either a spewing ball of rage, Cursing and blaming Your Name. Or...

Tomorrow is the day I see you. 370 days since the last time I saw your smile, Heard your laugh, Looked into your blue eyes. Only tomorrow will be so very different. Your eyes will be closed. A smile will no longer fall on your face. And your laugh Along with you, Will be gone. The shell of your body is what I get to say goodbye to. How do I face you? How do I look at a body that is so very clearly the one of my brother An...

I love you- You know that right? Every time that I have told you no, I was hoping it was for your own good. You say you are no longer the same person, That he died long ago. I don't belive you. I will always see you as the strong, amazing, and most bravest person I've ever known. You are my other half. When you went away, A part of me did as well. I started listening to your music, watching the things you watch. And whene...

I am enraged. Why must our lives be so difficult? Why must those who are supposed to love us, Hurt us? The idea of you hurting in any way pains me. It fills me with a burning hatred I have long forgotten. To know that you are being beaten down, And treated like dirt But still have the strength to put on a happy face and show no pain Completely breaks my heart. To know that every night you are cold And sometimes have no wh...

To Whom It May Concern, You are evil. You are a horrid, Manipulative bitch, And you disgust me. You knock others down, While you stand above them, Taunting them as they cry out. People say misery likes company, But why would you go so far,  As to hurt the people who love you? Who try to help you? You won't ever change. I give up on you. I will no longer be the nice person that you can push around. If you want to treat me...

There was a girl, So far down in a deep dark hole. The blackness all around her suffocated her. All she could think about was what it would be like to die. Little did she know, She was already dead inside. Every bone, every cell, Every fiber in her body was cold, lifeless. She could see pictures of her everyone she knew. They all surrounded her, Taunting her."Why are they so happy?""Why can't I be like that?" Then the ans...

My body hurts. With every step I take on the damn ground I feel my soul burning and hurting,  Like at any moment I could fall through the floor. Life is hard for everyone, And for people that feel like this it is 100 times harder just to get through one day. Curse my brain for keeping me awake at night, Curse this fucking medication that I have to take everyday. I'll fight those demons hiding in my closet, And I will have...

My mind is racing, With every word my brain spews on the page I feel part of my sanity come back. Part of my pain is lifted, Part of my heart mends itself, But only for a moment, Because once this poem is over, I get thrown into the darkest part of my head. In this place, I am told I am worthless, stupid, not worthy of life. I argue with voices inside me. Voices, so many voices circling me! I scream and scream, But no one...

Why does it have to be me? You lie in bed asleep, While I sit in a dark corner,Petrified of my own thoughts. I can't sleep because you'll be there.  Slowly I slip into madness. Pounding my head against the wall, Screaming at the shadows in my closet. Why can't anyone hear me?! Why will no one listen?! I just want to sleep. I just want to live my life without the fear of seeing you again. Then everything goes silent. I'm s...

Why must I be the one who is punished?The one who is afraid to sleep at night? Who feels alone every second of everyday?I didn't do this to myself. I didn't ask you to hurt me. You sleep at night,While I try to pick up the pieces of my life. While trying to fight the voices in my head saying I'm worthless. While trying to forget everything and stop crying. For once in my life I want to feel happy. I want to feel anything...

Stop saying you love me, Because I don't think you understand how much I hurt, How much I cry, How many times I wake up in the middle of the night screaming, Because of you.  I don't think you know how many times I look over my shoulder. Even though you're 1000 miles away, In my mind you could be behind me in a second. I don't like loving my life in terror, But because of you I feel I have to. I hate being afraid of the d...

You haunt my dreams.Every dream turns dark and evil with a glimpse of you.When will I be at peace?I know when death knocks on your door, I will still be haunted.Your presence will linger around me like fog.Scared, so scared I feel you're behind me.Waiting for me to turn around and see you.Darkness is what I see.Everytime I close my eyes,I'm alone.I don't want to be alone.It reminds me how alone I felt when you betrayed me...