I've been searching for years now and maybe I still havent found it (too soon too soon) but at least I worked up enough courage to hold your handIt took me 4 hours to do it but I did itand I felt the blood rush from fingers to body to heart to brain.an electric current flowing through veins sparking an interest that won't dieto the point of lacking sleep and erasing desires to get highwhere a smile's plastered on your fac...

There once was a place of unimaginable beauty Where the trees blossomed all the time And the sun shined and the weather was calm And there was never any rain or thunder And they were all made from a God: A deity in which no one could ever see And this God saw that this beautiful land Was empty, and was barren, and so he created a man. And he named him “Adam”, for all of mankind. And he gave him animals to talk to, And del...

The walls are corroding, there are no mirrors no goddamn reflectionsno hint of color--or is it too much color--everything is white, blank, bare, barren, empty, pale, plain, unfilled, unmarked, untouched, unused, vacant, vacuous, virgin, virginal, void, white She didn't like how it felt in there, so she left; but me, I was trapped.It's colder in here than it is outside in January on a iced out sleety day with nothing to do...

Friday "I want you out of this house." Silence as I pack. "You're better off dead than doing what you're doing! You know that!? You're better off fucking dead!" I continue to pack...shirt sleeves (it's October), hoodies, Deodorant.... "That's what these drugs will do to you...they're going to fucking kill you, slowly and painfully. You're better off fucking dead!" Maybe I am...I don't know. I continue to pack: Xbox games,...

For all intents and purposes this story is Fiction...do not attempt to think you know anything more about me after reading it...the characters are all fictional (and please disregard grammar...I'm drunk) September 9th, 2009: I was reading a book for my “Children's Literature” class when the same girl who was playing that song on guitar that I loved, and which I thought only I knew existed, came up and sat at the same picn...

1: Why is pot illegal, but Beer and Cigarettes (two of the deadliest inventions known to man) are.2: Why does America still think it's the number one country?3: Why is it okay to tell a person they are too skinny, but it's considered not nice to call a person too fat?4: Why can't a girl ask a GUY out on a date...why does it always have to be the other way around?5: Why do people only seem to care for someone after they ar...

I got some c**e with this girl I met the other day50 dollars split to numb the pain awaylife's a whole lot easier when your body's numbyou sni**, snor (record skip)t, and swallow till you can't feel your gumsfor a few short hours the world fits right where it belongs:with no feelings and a girl on your armeverything seems more bearabletolerableI can deal with itas long as there's something or someone to veer me off topicI...

I've got a twenty dollar bill rolled up that says money's best use is when it isn't being spent I roll it over and over in my brain time and time/again and againbut it's all memories as that blurred part of my life is now completeand I'm just like every other adult I told myself I never would beFuck, I hate this. I don't want this.I want my dormroom, I want my girlfriend,I want my mind fogged because all it sees when it's...

Flash Back Age 12“What's going on?”“Some guy accidentally crashed a plane into a building in the city”Laughs.“No. Really. People are dead.”Laughs stop.“What? Like a large plane?”“Yea”Just then a teacher went by crying... a male teacher. Skyler, who's concern that day was whether or not he was going to get in trouble for bringing in a fart machine to class, suddenly became aware that things were serious. The next period du...

"The internet is just another shit catalyst." "How do you figure that?""What do you mean how do I figure that? I just told you whenever I write shit down I always say too much...practically turning a pen into a spade and digging a fucking tomb for myself.""Don't be such a pussy. And I like your stuff.""You like my stuff because you have to like my stuff; you're my best friend. The publishers don't like my "stuff"...clearl...

The sun’s waking up And you don’t want it toYou say, “Sun please go back to sleep, your baby misses the moon”(A.K.A your excuse to stay fixed in your room)Not because it’s beautiful Or because it lights up the darknessThe moon to you is just the makingsOf a fruit ripped with excusesFor you to lay and rest your eyes in those sleeping bags they've createdIt’s getting easier for you, anywayAs the weather starts to freeze and...

I go to the bar and within two hours I leave. Something about all those people who’ve been looking at me, It's too much company; way, way too much companyso I walk home alone except the passing drunks and trees, go back to a place where no eyes can bother me where I’m shaking on a bathroom floor head unseen, hacking till my insides move and burst through skincovering everything. Sleep it off where I’m safe at least till t...

too many nights have gone on without sleeptoo many promises made that I couldn’t keep too many (record skip sound) being sniffed up into meto ever really care much about anythingmirrors they show reflection, but they don’t show through skinso there's been too many times where I’ve held it all intoo many times I haven’t known where to beginto tell her how I feel before the night ends

She lit up like some sort of Christmas treeAll golden and godlike and all bright and greenAnd I wish you could have seenMy insides swim inside of meLike bullets they shot through beamsAbsorbed in the cracks and sunk into the seamsMy heart actually skipped a beatI guess, metaphorically, it was at a loss to speakAnd walking out along the beach and the sandDrinking with her and almost holding handsHappiness sometimes it can'...

In order to gain any sort of stability we must first begin to understand each other...but understanding why some people do what they do is difficult...oh, believe me, believe us, it's difficult. Let's divulge for a minute by making a list (and checking it twice, three times, four times, and on and on and so forth):The angry drunks, who drink until they are pissing fumes...who, if you should so much as look at their girlfr...