I got some c**e with this girl I met the other day
50 dollars split to numb the pain away
life's a whole lot easier when your body's numb
you sni**, snor (record skip)t, and swallow till you can't feel your gums
for a few short hours the world fits right where it belongs:
with no feelings and a girl on your arm

everything seems more bearable
tolerable

I can deal with it
as long as there's something
or someone
to veer me off topic

I've got no logic
when things go bad I lose it
I starve for feeling of someone's flesh
something pink and warm to make me calm
and get some f**king rest (at night)
I can't f**king sleep, I can't sleep
I lay down and close my eyes
but there are no goddamn dreams
just nasuea and a headache
and tossing and turning

would it really help if a girl laid next to me in bed?
No, that's less room for me to stretch my legs

And anyway, no girl's ever gonna comfort me the way you used to
now it's just sex for sex's sake
sex just to get off; just to orgasm
-30 minutes of pleasure and 23 hours and 30 minutes of loneliness-
is really no bargain

I want that feeling back of being held and feeling safe
and loved
not getting f**ked just to get f**ked