As I sit looking out the window of my blackened soul. I see the light of the day outside. Reaching to touch it. To feel the warmth of the day from the coldness of the darkness. Wishing for my freedom. The freedom to feel the happiness that eludes me. Where is the sun shine to fill my soul with happiness. To fill it with love. To fill the void I feel. Where is the sweetness of life. Begging to let me out of my solitude. As...

With a smile as bright as the golden sun rise you would wake me with love. With the warm hugs of love that held the sweet smell of honeysuckle you warmed my heart. With the soft loving kisses of the boo boos that came along to take the pain away. With the fun times and the sad times that came along. With the ups and the downs though out the years. With the love no other could show you were there. With the love of a mother...

As the night starts and the darkness comes over me, I look out into the darkness of the shadows, only see the shell of what once was. The hurt of being betrayed, the anger of being hurt, the sorrow that comes from the anger,  all tearing at me - trying to consume me. When will it all fade away? Why is the loneliness of a darkened soul all I feel? Feeling the burning of the blood coursing through my veins, feeling it carry...