Christmas isn't the same anymore...it hasn't been the same in a long time. But this year...something about this year that was just so...terrifying, awful, disappointing. The house outside doesn't light up...not like it used to. My father used to be out there the day after Thanksgiving...it's 5 days before Christmas...still no lights. I'd do it myself but...I'm pretty sure he threw them out...and what's the point really? I...
Even though you can't (or just don't) see this...I miss youI dont eat right anymoreI dont sleep right anymoreI dont do a lot of things right anymoreI dont tell anybody, why botherwords spread like a virus with multiple hostsI'm happy as far as they know...and that's the way I like itI'm happyI tell jokesI smileI laughBut it would take an impossible number of peopleto truly understand the gravity of the fact that you arent...
