Stop!Stop the lies as they drip from your fingertipsStop!The hurt that your words causeStop! Judging people you don't knowStop!Being selfish because your hurtStop!Antagonizing the innocentStop!Hiding and show yourselfStop!Just stop!
You don't believe me and that really hurts. I thought out of everyone you were different. However, I guess you're not and that is a shame. Because for you...I would have done anything, even attempted to walk on water. But I should have known it was too good to be true. That you would rather feel young than have a friend that's true.
Hi, I'm Martyna Smith. I was born September 22nd. My friends call me Marty and my best friend calls me penguin. If I were to tell people my story they would call me an attention seeker. Maybe attention is exactly what I need. Somewhere in this world people like me don't want to die. We want to be saved. I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you just can never seem to. How y...
I look at you sitting in the bay window, overlooking the setting sun, as twilight slowly approaches the Pacific Ocean. My heart feels warm and my soul is full of love. You sit there with your knees up, arms wrapping around them with your head resting there, tilting watching smiling at me. The sun's rays come through the glass wrapping your head in a golden halo, my sweet angel. You smile and mouth to me, "I Love You, My D...
I've given up on living forever. I can't stand up to the struggle. Everything I've dreamed up is a memory. There's nothing left for me here. I remember when I cried And you came to comfort me. You wouldn't be content to let me lie, But you didn't understand me. Why do I give up on living this life? Why do I give up tonight? When the rock breaks, And the earth shakes, When everything I've built just fades away. When all th...
It still lives inside of me. Grasping me closer to the edge. I let it control me because I learned to love it. This creature is my beloved sorrow that lives by the pain it causes me. I wonder if I can make it out alive. Sometime I wonder how I can sleep at night. Can you see? What I have become... I'm still waiting for the worse to come. I’m here just living day by day. I’m always asking myself when everything started. Pa...
Just because she doesn't cry, Doesn’t mean a thing. What she’s piddling with Is a hainted heart. Sometimes tears Can't cause a river Deep enough for a woman To dip her haint of a heart in --Not when she has lived too long In such a short time. What is the purpose of a tear If not to soothe? A woman can grow dry Inside Like burnt leaves, Discarded among dead roots Of hollow trees Leaning naked in the wind. N...
What is it about the start of a New Year that gives people hope of change? As if, once the previous year ends, the new will be clean and the past can’t hurt us. I am, of course, a victim of this thinking. Or, maybe, it’s just me who thinks like this? I’m not sure. The start of 2013 was pretty good for me. I was happy, I had a boyfriend, I was healthy, and I even met a person, who quickly became my best friend. I thought 2...
I'm hurting inside...I need to break FREE... I'm torn inside... Permanently damaged... trying to fly away, release all my hurt and pain...But all I do is fall flat...My soul drowning... barely hanging on I pray to be alone...Don't do this...bottling up inside... Sometimes I just can't take it!I lash out on myself...My pain is resolved once more...for now!My pain to stay forever never to leave till my soul a floats!
You don't understand me?Join the crowd I seem to confuse people When I speak out loud My thoughts are pretty clear to me How can they make no sense Trying to get the right words out Usually causes someone offense You will never get me I'm not like you You think you know me You have no goddamn clue Discarded because I don't fit in some mold This constant rejection is getting quite old If me being me isn't good enough Then...
We never met face to face but I knew right from the startFor whatever reason you'd have a place in my heartI can't explain it, words can't describeHow you made me feel way down deep insideYour words were lies, said without meaningYour motives unclear, left me needingIt's hard to believe that our paths crossed for a reasonWhen in the end you left me bleedingIt's cruel fate to love one sidedThe feeling is awful, like I'm sl...
Did you ever get close to someone? Sharing things you might not tell anyone. The friendship was moving in the right direction,For awhile, it felt like some sort of a connection. But then something happens and no words are said,Leaving the other person feeling very mislead. They say everything is fine and you're still friends,Yet it is different now why even pretend. I don't mean to be upset and complain,But I am far to ol...
The rain finally started falling tonight. The steady clanking of raindrops on the roof soothed me. I like it. A relaxing feeling filled me then, and I found myself crying. I guess my emotions decided it’s about time they break out.So I cried. Along with the rain, I poured all damned feelings that were caged inside me for a lengthy time now. I don’t know how my body managed not to fall apart already since I was shattering...
For three years I had you in my life, every day Now all I have are a bunch of tears But I couldn't stay I had no idea I would have to get used to not having you around I knew eventually, one of us would die But knowing you are alive, and not having you is keeping me down Now all I can do is cry I have felt pain before Worse pain than this But sometimes, its so hard to get up off the floor Not when, you are what I really m...
Last night, I had a misunderstanding with an on-line friend, And now, they are not speaking to me maybe it's the end. I often put a lot into these on-line relationships,But in the end, it's always like a sinking ship. The situation was ridiculous and the punishment is much worse,I really am quite bothered and now have put it to verse. I have apologized numerous times,Now I am hurt and sad and losing my mind. I guess I wil...
