It still lives inside of me.

Grasping me closer to the edge.

I let it control me because I learned to love it.

This creature is my beloved sorrow

that lives by the pain it causes me.

I wonder if I can make it out alive.

Sometime I wonder how I can sleep at night.

Can you see?

What I have become...

I'm still waiting for the worse to come.

I’m here just living day by day.

I’m always asking myself when everything started.

Pain,

Shame,

Guilt,

and the tears that keep falling.