For three years
I had you in my life, every day
Now all I have are a bunch of tears
But I couldn't stay

I had no idea I would have to get used to not having you around
I knew eventually, one of us would die
But knowing you are alive, and not having you is keeping me down
Now all I can do is cry

I have felt pain before
Worse pain than this
But sometimes, its so hard to get up off the floor
Not when, you are what I really miss

I thought what we had was the real deal
If I knew going in, this is what I had to look forward to
I would run the other way to not have to feel
But this pain reminds me, that my love for you was real

We can't go back
And it seems impossible to move on
Everything seems so black
I just want the pain to be gone