Folding,Hiding beyond bricks,Waiting,Longing to see light.Hiding,Waiting in the dark,Longing to go outside.Waiting,Longing to find something.Longing for life.

Rewind time. I climb,The tree of life,Clambering,Longing to reach the top.I keep falling,Like Alice.Can't find my footing,Like Bambi.I keep crashing to rock bottom. Photographs frozen,Still memories,Of pain,Of good times,Of bad.Almost atop,But I slip again,Becoming one with darkness.Feeling hopeless.Feeling pathetic.Unworthy of taking up space.You may not get it,But the place I am in,You aren't.It's dark.It's cold.It's lo...

Always second,Never first.Always wrong,Never right.Always sad,Never happy.Always ignored,Never acknowledged.Always pushed,Never pulled.Always heard,Never listened.Always existing,Never living.Always there,Never here.Always forgotten,Never remembered.Always second,Never first.

I feel distant,More non-existent,As if I don't belong,As if it's all wrong.I'm transparent as a ghost,I stand by,As those I love the most,Just carry on, ignoring,The don't hear me, imploring.Please, please!I need to be heard!Please, please!Can you spare me a word?If only you could tell,How the words,Trapped inside me yell.As if my life is trapped in a screen,Or maybe it's me,They won't hear me scream.It's just a show,But...

The rivers flow from sunken eyes,No one hears these silent cries,Except the room,But I assume,Even the air,Doesn't give a care.Into my pillow I weep,Can't fall asleep,Until the warm tears,Through the pillow sear,Burning as my eyes,Shed silent cries.Convulsive sobs,Gather in mobs,Flowing upon the sheets,Hysteria is my defeat,No turning back,My eyes close it's black.Then I sleep,Curled up in a heap,My lashes soaked,By thoug...

Talk and TalkAnd Talk some more.Keep flapping your gums,Stupid whore. You don't know me,You never will,My stomachs turning,You make me ill.Why do you talk,You talk so much shit.One day bitch,You are gonna get hit.Don't ask me,To come to the rescue,I just wish I had known,What they knew.You are a flat-leaver,You were never there,So now I'm going,Without a care.I won't turn my head,I won't look back,The memories,Will fade t...

Two fallen hearts,Who's thrown the darts,Filled of evil poison?Two soul-mates,It was surely fate,But now it's blue confetti.Broken and torn,Vows that were sworn,Now they do not matter.Left is a trail,Flap your arms and flail,Above the blue confetti.Alas, you drown,You float face down,In the blue confetti. It rains it pours,Your soul it soars,Above the blue confetti.Fast forward in time,We cannot rewind,But we still see bl...

On October 1, 2008, an innocent woman was shot, and killed. Not only was she a woman, but a mother as well. The neighborhood is quiet, although there is a painfully loud echo of silence. The only sounds that are heard at night, are the occasional sound of a passing train. Sometimes there is an echo of footsteps, walking by in the darkness, and around October, those footsteps crunch loudly over leaves. A train sometimes go...

Where does it go?The time?The hand moves slow,Sound the chime.It seemed to grow wings,But where did it fly?Days of nothings,I wave goodbye.Yesterday seems,So far away,Twitching through dreams,Haunting as I lay.Sound the alarm,The loud clock beeps,So I move my arm,To remove the sheets.The cold air invades,I get asked a few questions,Respond playing charades,My brain out of suggestions.I just want to sleep,To go back to dre...

July 8th, 2010Dear Diary, Today is another beautiful, sunny, summer day. Not too hot, not too cold. It seems as though everyone and their mothers, fathers, aunts, uncles, cousins, sisters, brothers and grandparents are out for a stroll through town. The streets are flooded with crying kids, dropping ice cream cones, or whining about leaving the park. There are mothers pushing baby carriages through shaded pathways lined w...