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JustAnotherSapphic
4 weeks ago
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Twitter: Come see this new post from Jane.
Me: *checks her account*
Twitter: Gotcha! She posted it earlier!

Ugh. Why are delayed notifications a thing?
You'd think too many emotions would be a writer's dream, but I'm here to tell you that it's the worst thing that can happen.

Tldr; Jane has me feeling everything and then some and I want to put it into words, but I'm not sure if I can cause the depth of what I'm feeling might be too overwhelming for it.
Not me losing it over the fact that Jane and I had similar dreams about being fully awake while still asleep last night, I swear.

I know cause she tweeted about it. I...
Not me struggling to share Jane with the rest of the world again, I swear. Nor do I feel like putting a warning on my FB to anybody who might decide to post about her.

...except it is and I do (as awful as that sounds).
I've felt like crying all day and I don't know why to the point where even holding pillow!Jane isn't doing much to help,

I wish she was really here cause I feel like crap and I need to be held.
Not me having just misread the slogan in a Cheez-It ad.

What it said: Upgrade your lunch.
What I read it as: Upgrade your Lynch.

Head empty. No thoughts; only Jane.
Well, I sit corrected - Anne does have a softer, non-sadistic side after all.

...but this isn't me losing it over the fact that she winked at the end or the fact that she meta'd herself with, "I'm glad this isn't that other show I used to do."

I...
Quote by WriterGirl
Hi all! Just poppin in. I'm looking forward to reading the comp entries!


Welcome. Pull up a chair or snuggle up on the sofa and get comfy.

You can call me Xander or Elyse. I answer to both.
At first glance, "toothpaste" sounds like paste made from the ground up teeth of dead people or something and not something used to clean your teeth.

...yeah, I know I'm weird.
Not me still awake at almost 4 in the morning, emotional, and wondering if my feelings for Jane and/or the fact that I don't really care about much other than her is something I should be ashamed of.

She's honestly the only thing that really gives me joy other than maybe one or two other things.
The IG impersonators have come for Jane and, as you can imagine, I'm not happy. Thankfully I'm not dunb enough to fall for their tricks, but still.

Why do people do this stuff? It's not funny or cute and it's an insult to Jane.
My heart is so ready to overflow with love for Jane that it's not funny - to the point where I'm honestly surprised that I'm not crying right now.

I...I ache for her...and...I just want to be alone with her without any distractions.
Quote by Mendalla
Good thing you're not an accountant, I guess. But I'm sure Jane could handle it. She'd just have to keep the household budget herself.FsBSuqAlCKjo5aHP


Except she doesn't need one cause she's priceless.

And on another note, I think they're filming WL now cause somebody on IG had a video of themselves on set with her...and it's recent. Aka not from last season.

I...she's really, truly coming back and I'm losing it. Now if only somebody would give us the exact date, I'd be even happier.
Quote by Mendalla
I almost hate to ask how you do subtraction in this system.


I didn't mess with that - just addition - but either way, I don't think Jane (or any woman) would want a wife that ironically messed with math only to have it backfire on her.
Quote by Mendalla
I think there's days when I might prefer your way.


You say that now, but wait until you have to actively remind yourself to add the numbers every time you do math the way I have to.
That awkward moment when you've somehow convinced yourself that people have been doing addition wrong for centuries and now actual addition seems wrong to you.

*

How addition is done: 5 + 6 = 11.
How I've started thinking it's done: 5 + 6 = 56.

Tldr; I'm an idiot. Nuff said.
Not me still thinking about the dream I had about Jane earlier. Nor is it me thinking about how soft her hair felt when I stroked it or the look she gave me as I did.

God, I'm just...so soft and in love...
Quote by Mendalla
A sign of how deep your affection for her runs? Or maybe you're meeting her on the astral plane or something while you're both sleeping?


Personally, I think it's a bit of both, although I think astral Jane is more accurate.

This is the third or fourth dream I've had about her in the last month, too, which is unusual cause I don't usually dream about her this much.
Jane was in my dreams again. This time we were helping to redecorate a school but kept gravitating towards each other instead of doing our jobs...and when I stroked her hair, I could actually feel its texture.

Think that means anything?
If anybody is curious and/or can help, the plot is basically that character A knows character B is a lesbian before A does, B watches A try to "date" various men knowing it won't work out, and eventually A and B are a thing because A can't stand seeing B hurt (well, that and A is more than a bit jealous).
Writing is all fun and games until you have everything you need except the tropes it fits into.

I can't really do much until I have those sorted out.
Not me still awake and really emotional over Jane, I swear.

My heart is really struggling to hold everything in so if I cry a lot today, that's why. She gives me emotions that have no name.
Not going to lie, I'm really, really struggling to share Jane with the rest of the world today - to the point where everybody feels like a threat whether they actually are or not.

Quote by etairay
It gets like that sometimes *extra Friday huggles hug hug* 😂😃👋 you're fine


Oh, thank goodness cause I felt like such an idiot after that happened.
Please tell me I'm not the only one who's ever had an idea for something and then been like 'oh my god I better make note of this' only to discover that you already did and just don't remember doing so.

...cause that's exactly what happened to me this morning. Whoops.
Not me browsing through Anne Robinson's tumblr tag only to find that I'm not the only one who's ever been attracted to her in some way.

...except it is, I was, and now I feel so validated it's not funny.
Not me feeling like I don't deserve Jane, I swear. Nor is it me feeling like she wouldn't love me - or even like me, for that matter.

...except it is, I am, and I do. And yes, I do know I shouldn't jump to conclusions but I don't think it can be helped.
Not me desperate to spoon with Jane again. Or something. Honestly, I just need to be close to her.