I'd always found it odd seeing my brother as a father. I still remembered when we were kids, running around on the playground acting a fool. And now, he had a kid. When John had asked if I wanted to come with to pick him up, I'd said yes. Any chance to see my favourite nephew. Unfortunately, the storm brewing up above seemed to have found its figurtive counterpart as both John and J.J. were wearing scowls on their face wh...

She hides in plain sightA hint of melancholy on her faceOnce happy and free She is now lost in the prison she's made in her mindWalls she has built with steel and stoneShe makes jokes and laughsInside she is dyingHer pain betrayed by a painted on smileShame, pride, and humiliation in disguise"She dresses like a whore," she wanted it more"She went there alone," she deserved what was done"Why did she stay quiet?" You must k...

Broken inside My pain hides behind empty smiles Nowhere to turn nowhere to go Helpless I have become Feeling like a walking mat Only here as temporary relief Once I'm used I'm thrown away Scared to speak no one will listen Who I am on the inside they are missing I wanna blossom I wanna shine The reflection in the mirror isn't mine Positivity is key but I have the wrong lock When the sun is shining I wait for rain Memories...

I do dwell too often on the pastabout things I had no control If I told all it would likely flabbergastthese memories from so long ago I am ashamed when being askedof the things that happened then Forced so young to grow up far too fastmy childhood stolen way back when Did I deserve to be lashed and trashedwhipped mercilessly told I was stupid Was I an evil child needing to be outcastfor my thoughts and my curiosities Alw...

Here tears reign,And Self cannot be pulled togetherWhen Self is screaming, torn asunder,Where empty shell is welling up whilstEyes of others rollAgainst the failings of thisSelfish child,So called becauseShe cannot rule whatOthers hide and stow away.'Midst the back streets of her mind,Her common sense is raging cruelTo lash her weakness,Scorn self-pityAnd loathe the drama queenShe...Is?She knows not where or when they sto...

The words just don’t come out. Never knowing what to say. The pain within you pours out,but no one sees it. You write your shame painfully over your body. Memories and painful words Play over like a song. You live like no one can harm you,but you’re just a broken doll. Just like the other day you keep the silence. Letting it build up. 2x Suffocating Numbness, You get to know. It’s slowly consuming you but somewhere your o...

She steps towards him, arms crossed over herself, head down in shame, but eyes up, looking at him. "What's wrong, hun?" A few tears slip down her cheeks and she bites her lip, shaking. "I know I'm soiled... but... please don't leave me. I need you." His arms open up, and he holds her, shushing her. "What that creep did wasn't your fault. I love you, I won't leave you. I need you too." You make me feel whole. You make me f...

“There’s nowhere to run, so let’s just get it over…”­ -Evanescence, Snow White Queen. I’m strong, a survivor. I can’t understand why I crumble. -Ellen Hopkins, Identical. People won’t look at me anymore I am soiled, an angel fallen, no longer pure. I am broken, shards of glass, no longer whole. I am a survivor, laden with scars, no longer pretty. But I can breathe again.

Do I dwell too often on the pastabout things I had no control If told all they would flabbergastmemories of another time Ashamed I am when being askedof things that happened then Forced to grow up way too fastchildhood stolen from me Did I deserve to be lashed and trashedwhipped mercilessly told I was stupid Was I a bad child needing to be outcastfor my thoughts and curiosities Living in terror made to feel abashedtaught...

Even in escape, there’s no escape, no opening of waters, no Promised Land,no paradise, no freedom if the Sinai that was crossedso long ago is littered now with bonescrumbling in that sandand broken hearts are screaming anguished criesand tears from longing eyes roll down cheekslooking at the land no longer theirs.Now, there is no grassy hill to sit on in the setting sunfeeling chosen while the "un-chosen" run through burn...