It comes to me in whispers, Tapping at my unconscious window Peering from behind frozen glass Wriggling around the outskirts of my mind It comes to me in waves, Clawing at my insides one minute Gone the next Intervals of frantic flutters and static bristles It comes to me in droves, Hurls me to the ground, Leaving me windless in a storm of hooves Trampling over my heart It comes to me naturally, Every step is taken breath...

This year has proved to be chaoticIt reminds me of a scientific movieThe news makes you neuroticThe world is basically gloomyThis virus is a killerSo many people have diedNothing makes this virus familiarThe numbers have caused a landslideYou have to wonder what is trueIs the media telling some talesSo many people have their viewsThere are so many detailsWearing a mask is the lawYou must social distanceIt must cover your...

No! Please! Don't shut me in here. What have I done to you? I thought you were my friend, Uncle. Like a father to me whilst my own father fights in the Crusades. It is so dark in here. Come back, Uncle, let me out... Please! Where are you? Is it night? Is it day? I can't breathe in this tiny space, Uncle! My fingers are so sore from scratching at the unyielding stone... Let me out! Let me out... I will surely die here. No...

  Time goes slow,As I sink into an all-time low.My heart beats pain as I strain my eyes looking for a better future.All doors closed but I keep an open mindLeft alone, I am the last of my kindI got comfortable, in a home that wasn’t mineSleeping every day thinking; everything would be fineInstead, I should have been preparing for the storm to comeI should have been on the lookout and on the runI’m not ready yet!To live a...

I was awake at 4am (after dreaming of panicking), worrying about going to Painsburys for 7am (when it tends to be quiet), when it occurred to me that Stressco might already be open! It was, and so I went down there. There were lots of workers doing the online shopping rounds, but they were all polite and friendly, and got out the way if I needed things, and got on with their work as I mostly just kept to myself and avoide...

I wake on my left side, shivering from the cold. I fumble for the comforter but come up empty-handed. Annoyed, I roll onto my back thinking I'll have to wrestle it from Ben, my blanket-stealing husband who likes to wrap himself in a cocoon. Instead of feeling his warm body, I find only space, as my hand drops to a cool, hard surface covered in what feels like small wood shavings.Confusion blurs my memory. Gradually, the v...

I open my eyes to the harsh sunlight, proudly beaming through my windowIt doesn't cleanse away the dread or mundane sorrowPushing greasy hair away from my faceWalk out the door, down the steps, repressing my failure to communicate From down the street, you call my name, but in my daze, it's distorted As I approach closer to you, a grin sprawls across your faceI force myself to replicate it, but I can't hide where my mind...

Terrified of everything After what you did to me Terrified of everything It's like I ceased to be Terrified of everything Panic all the time Terrified of everything So I drink too much wine Terrified of everything I just confided in a friend Terrified of everything What you did can never mend Terrified of everything It really was not easy Terrified of everything Now I'm feeling queasy Terrified of everything Will I ever r...

When one stands in the sunshine, the world around is always bright.It is easy to see creatures at play, enjoying beauty in nature's light.Things are visible and unwrapped, though some can hide in the shadows. Unseen things that can only be felt, when spirits and souls rub elbows.In darkness, one's mind can be deceived,as panic awakes to sounds being heard.Rustling leaves upon a gentle breeze,frightful things when one's vi...

This musing only available on Stories Space. if you are reading it elsewhere, it has been stolen."Pull yourself together!""Mind over matter...""Don't be so ridiculous.""Get a grip.""Just calm down.""Take deeeeep breaths..."If you've never suffered from a panic attack, you cannot possibly know what it's like. I like to think that empathetic people can understand it, at least, and maybe get an inkling of how it feels. Sadly...

"You're married?" Susan exclaimed. I felt a hole where my stomach should have been. I saw the look of shock and horror across her face. Then a pained look took over her whole body. I broke out in a cold sweat. I couldn't imagine hurting this woman and I barely knew her.I nodded slowly."Why did you ask me out if you're married?" she asked through clenched teeth. The anger radiated from her in waves."Because you're one of t...

.I step slowly from the cab,Generously paying the tab, The drivers kind of cute, Not paying attention while I gab. Tell the cabbie, thank you ma'am, Handing her a few clams, Stepping out of the car The door shuts with a slam. There's a tablet here, I know. Wallet's in the pocket fo' sho. No phone in the other! Oh, no, where did it go? I pat my self down, Starting to frown, I've lost my phone I'm going to drown. I feel the...

Icy flash!Awake at night!Jolt shoots through my being!Numbness travels up my arms -And as I lose my feeling -Heart thumps fast at such a pace,It seems to want to flee me -High pitched shriek  Runs through my headMy chest in death grip squeezing -Body cold, I’m so afraid,My teeth then start to chatter -Such fear I feel of everythingWhy? It does not matter -Sitting, rocking, in my room -When will this be over?My life is rea...

Chapter 25 Flaming Fear “Ah, our sweet Tensartis! Every time it’s the same, my lord, you keep on forgetting to mention the high percentage of hydrogen in the air! Poor boy! Hurry, the shooting will start again any minute!” Pieris drags me into the hole, with Kallitris helping with a remorseful expression on his face. He sure is lovely even when he is upset! I pass out briefly, knocked out by the winds of Ashtarma, but I c...

A lazy morning, winter fog Giggles, cuddles, play pretend in the quilts. Warm afternoon, water sun A long drive, lunch out, a day out Laughter, smiles, thank you for day well spent. Smile on face, love in soul, a chat with my loving heart, I bid fond farewell and close my laptop. THUMP!!!!!!!!!!!!! A dreadful loud noise from outside! Scared fearful, I rushed outside Looking around trying to find a source of that noise, Sc...