Sometimes, I’m in the jungle
tripping over vines,
shoving my way through bushes,
looking for a path,
wondering if there is one
and asking with every breath,
where am I?
Other times I’m an eagle
high above the trees
soaring over lakes,
my heart filled with sky,
my eyes searching
for the nourishment I need,
wanting to dive deep
into dark pools.
Sometimes I’m with the stars,
in orbit,
far away,
a point of light,
my voice coming
from this dark universe
we share.
Sometimes, I’m spring,
bursting with green life,
shaking off the winter’s cold,
coming to the light again,
the warm sun,
the earth
flowing through me,
blossoming into words.
Sometimes I’m summer
tasting every flower,
savoring
the sweetness everywhere,
swallowing the air,
cherishing the breeze,
that lets me fly and be here,
a butterfly knowing ecstasy,
my voice
rising from the green silence.
And on autumn days,
filled with red and gold
and ripe aromas,
the chill of dark mornings,
the heat of wood warming
my blood and bones,
knowing soon, the rising sun
will take away the moon,
and glow in me,
giving me another day
of astonishment.
Other days I’m the snow
white against the trees,
the fallen leaves
glistening like a tapestry,
a blanket for the brown and brittle grass,
my mouth swallowing the chilly air,
the taste of winter on my tongue.
my cold words
icicles
dripping in the winter sun.
And yes, the rising
lust when I see a lovely woman
and want what I can’t have
and ache with fantasies of wildness
and romance
while she walks away,
leaving me with this wound
that wants to bleed.
So many times
I wonder if this body I wear,
this mask that is my face,
these eyes a window
opening and closing,
letting in the light
so that I can know I’m here
breathing in my life,
my mouth giving me a voice
to say these words,
my mind
wondering where they come from.