Secret

He is there in my heart

A flutter in my stomach

A warmth so precious and clean

I hold him deeply

And guard him jealously

Scared that one day he will awaken

And see in me the imperfections

The many scars

The many broken pieces of my soul

And run so far from me.

I ache at the very thought

And know that devastation

Would be all that was left

Inside me

If ever he knew

Just how much I need him

Just how much I want him

Just how much

I...

Love...

Him...

How he shatters me into a million tiny pieces

And puts me back together

How he makes me whole

Over and over again

How he rules my every waking moment

And skims across the dark vistas of my dreams

His ephemeral form

Fleeting and feather soft

How he can so easily drop me to my knees

With the softest whisper of his voice

How he makes my heart sing

And brings me to the edge of tears

At just how wonderful he is

But the tears won’t come

My broken shell

The scarred remnants of my soul

Hidden from the light

In that dark place that dwells

Deep inside

Lying in wait

Fearful

Always scared that he will one day

Awaken

And see me for the

Broken thing that I am

And then to ask myself

What...

Shall...

I...

Do...

Then...

My...

Love?