Icy flash!
Awake at night!
Jolt shoots through my being!
Numbness travels up my arms -
And as I lose my feeling -
Heart thumps fast at such a pace,
It seems to want to flee me -
High pitched shriek 
Runs through my head
My chest in death grip squeezing -
Body cold, I’m so afraid,
My teeth then start to chatter -
Such fear I feel of everything
Why? It does not matter -
Sitting, rocking, in my room -
When will this be over?
My life is really not so bad,
So wherefrom comes this horror? 
Shaking now, but less intense
Though still the thoughts attack -
Awful, awful circles me
I cannot beat it back -

I stay this way,
And with some luck, 
I may fall back asleep -
But knowing that tomorrow night
The terror will repeat -

Now years have passed, 
And times I think -
I lived with so much dread -
I very clearly understood
How one might opt for Death.