I step into the subway car as I do every evening after work, finding it completely deserted at this time of evening. These late nights have become common and my family has become understanding of it. This night, however, I feel especially tired and anxious, like I'm expecting something. I settle onto a long bench along the far side of the car. I lie my head back and ... slide my eyes shut, ready to curl up in bed and enjo...

Lying here so close to death has kept my mind focused on the most significant moments of my life. My wedding day, the births of my children, the death of one, so many family members come and gone in my life and us left wondering why they died so soon. I now lie where each of them lied ... my mind occupied with the same thoughts of what came to be, what should have been, and what was never meant to be. Somehow though, of e...