I hold my cards close to my chestNever letting anyone inI don’t show my true coloursInstead keeping my thoughts to myselfWhy would I do this, you askBecause the world is so cruelNarrow-minded fools are in chargeAnd refuse to understand meI am deeply in love, yet I cannot shareI am listed as single, unwedBut as long as my love understandsI do not careSome days it’s harder, I just want to screamBecause she means the whole w...
I stare at you,and you stare backI hate what I see,yet still I lookAt my reflection Two years laterI stare once moreNothing has changedI still hate what I seeI hate who I amAnd I hate my reflection Another year goesand I feel trapped in timeNothing gets betterThose were all liesI hate how my eyesAre covered in blackAnd my lips are crackedGrinning back in my reflection It seems no matter how oftenI find a new mirrorI never...
I try to hold onto my hopes, dreams and desires. As the days grow shorter, and the nights longer, I find that sliver of hope that kept me going start to fade. I clutch my blanket around me tighter, ignoring the clock that says I must leave my bed. I ignore the life outside my doors in favour of living inside my own personal hell. I know what’s wrong, and I know how to fix it; I just lack the desire to do anything about it...
I can feel it on my skin, the tantalizing, life-giving heat from the sun above me. My skin dries, burns, blisters, reflecting my mind much more than seldom-spoken words or actions could ever hope to achieve. I watch the red peel, revealing darkened skin below, and it amuses me. My anger, much like my skin, burns and blisters my soul, leaving behind a darker and darker stain each time I feel it, ignore it, and refuse to le...
“Let’s play!” she says to me, tugging at my hand. I shake my head, planting my feet firmly and yanking my arm free from her slim fingers. Alice frowns at me, before shrugging and running towards the large playground. Alice always asks me to play with her, but I never go; instead, I go sit next to the large brick wall with my book. I don’t read though, just pretend to. Instead, I watch the other kids start up a game of pir...
It’s coming from each sideI can feel it surround meChoking, suffocating I can’t see it, yet still it’s there A thousand tiny hands Holding, pressing Pinning me where I stand I can’t understand it Confusing, condemning Where reality and fantasy touch The blurry border I walk Twisting, turning Never-ending agony Burning my thoughts and dreams Searing, scarring The guilt is overwhelming Staining my world red Blurring, shapin...
Sitting out on my porch I watch the world wake up. First the birds, calling out to their neighbours and family with happy, cheerful greetings. Then it's the moist drops of dew, glistening in the growing rays of sun that begin to peek over the tall snow-capped ridges surrounding me. After that comes the noise of humanity; cars, children, talking, crying, laughing, singing, happiness, sadness, hope. I just sit here, sipping...
As the snow falls silently outside my window, I sit here dreaming of you. I miss the way you smiled at me when I would run off on a tangent, then forget what I was talking about. I miss how you would sit at my desk working intently as I lie on the bed and watch you. I miss how you could always find time to indulge my spontanious impulses to go do something without complaining. I miss you lying next to me, watching me watc...
What the hell did Idrink last night? I thought, head spinning as I came into consciousness. Trying to think past the crippling post-alcohol agony I focused on the details that led to there being a crippling post-alcohol agony in the first place.Okay, best friend is getting married. That’s hard to forget. Bachelor party. Okay. The case of 150-proof Joe dragged out of his car. Things starting to make a little more sense. Fu...
Can I ask you a question,From deep in my mind?Will you give me the answerOr is it just not time?For me to find outIf what we have is real?What I want to knowIs if we mutually feel,For I feel you move fartherAway every day,And I don’t think you hearWhat I try to say.I want back the old usThe two we once were,Why do I feel likeThere’s another ‘her?’Who’s replaced me in your life,Who’s stolen my space?Is she real, is she bet...
The day that the world ends Will you be there to see it? The fires and the chaos Will you be running through it? That way that life is now You know it cannot last Will you embrace that darkness? Or be swallowed by your past? The tears that you are crying Leave such a dark red trail Down your cheeks across your lips And steadily drip of your chin You are so very weak So I feel the need to ask Will you leave now And forsake...
When I feel you moving closer My breath just seems to catch Your eyes refuse to leave mine Trapping me in their depths I don’t know how to act What is right and what is wrong You always seem to know though As my head slams against the wall I cry out, “I’m sorry!” But you just shake your head. “You little bitch,” you sigh, “I thought we’ve gone over this.” “I didn’t mean to do it,” I plead with you tearfully But my words m...
Look at meLet me gaze at youEyes wide and openLetting me into your soulMy heart swellsAt the sight you give meHands bound tightMouth taped closedI circle around youStrapped to the chairI drink in the fearThat is so clear in youThe tears blurring your visionCannot be containedLet them flowLet me see themLet me see moreI lift up your chin And plant a soft kiss On the silver blocking the flesh “Just a bit more,” I tell you A...
