When you can’t eat, 

can't sleep, 

can't breathe without them.

When your chest tightens up 

and it feels as if a hand has reached up inside your chest, 

squeezing your heart between cold fingers. 

When your eyes sting 

because there’s no more tears left to cry.

When all you want is better times 

but know that they’re gone forever, 

like a memory that will never fade, 

like a dream that became a nightmare.

When you lie awake at night and wonder, 

is it all worth it? 

When all you want to do is turn it off, 

turn everything off, 

and send the whole world spinning into total darkness. 

When tears aren’t enough anymore.

When crying just doesn’t cut it.