Fall's returned to give me it's lift
My sanity, energy and outlook
Returned, I am up early, life is a gift
Smiles, I work, exercise, even cook

Summer's heat zapped my soul
Slowly I eroded and lost control
Functioning became my only role
I felt that slip, I fell into my hole

Leaves rustle gently down as they rain
Their sounds soothe, to still me
My mind is settled, I feel no pain
Colors and hues of autumn, I'm free

Family and friends fill my days
Thankful for what I have to hold
Thorns lurk waiting, wanting their ways
Destroy them, to Satan could they be sold

A small seed, that even now I feel grow
I've doused it with medical pills and poison
But it returns just like the seasons flow
I fight it twice a year in cold, heat, am I done

I live with that fear and dread
Enjoying the freedom from it for now
Holidays coming, my family help and I'm led
Safely in their arms, kisses upon my brow

When your mind is your enemy
Nothing is promised but I still look ahead

Although things are quite beautiful now
I've learned lessons, they're quite old
Falls here with all it's splendor and glory
But soon the winter's dark will return

Then the air, my brain, my life again will grow cold.

No worries though, this cycle has become
Something strange, yet a familiar part of me now
I'll be up, back down, let the pattern repeat
My family waiting, how could I not show

Life is still a gift after all
One I never take for granted
I'm blessed and cursed, but that's just me
Cracks, dents, fissures and dings
I'll bend but not break and return to get on with things