Laying here on my bed
Thinking about all the moments we have shared
The long talks on the phone, texting
And the occasional video calls.
Talking about our lives
Our past, present and dreams for the future.
Learning about one another
The good and the bad.
I don’t know how you do it,
But you can see the truth.
Even when I try to hide it in moments of insecurity
Your gentle words and tight hugs,
Can make me feel safe and secure.
I have told you how much your friendship means to me
Although I haven’t been 100% honest
Because my feeling run a lot deeper than that.
Now in a few days time
The outcome of an event
May keep me away from you.
I am feeling scared and alone
And uncertain of what to do.
Should I tell you and risk losing you,
or just keep it to myself?