As I sit and, think

I try not to blink

Tears well up inside

Never to be cried

Waiting, wondering

Memories skipping

Sticking, spinning round

A film without sound

I turn, spin, twist, twirl,

I trip, fall, unfurl

Stand, stagger, crumble

Unbalanced stumble

Collapse, giving way

Show hidden decay

The festering past

Bursts through at long last

One eye looks wary

Sees the dark scary

One knows, looks away

Not captured today

Soon I find my eyes

Look through their disguise

See the other side

Where it plans to hide

That's all for this time

I hear the clock chime

That's how much I lost

How much must time cost