I thought you were the one.
The one who would love me
And take care of my heart.
Love denied once again.
I still feel the pain, hurt, and suffering
From past and present relationships.
Where time and time and time again
I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul…
Only to feel the cold steel dagger
From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade
Laced with poison dreams and romance
That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.
Loved denied once again.
I keep telling myself…
This one is different.
This one is special.
Yes…This one will return my love.
Finally, I'll have what I've longed for.
Hear words of love.
Feel promises of sweet caresses and gentle touches.
No more lonely nights of holding my pillow,
Crying myself to sleep and dreaming
For someone to return my love.
But in the darkness like the Titanic
With all its riches and dreams yet to come.
I was struck by that fatal blow…
Your love for me has died you confess
And all that you once felt for me
Was never as strong as you led me to believe.
How dare you put me through this!
How dare you play with my heart!
How dare you let me endure
The pain, the hurt, the shock,
And the emotional drainage from a relationship
That showed the promises of things to be!
Even with the birth of love
But those promises never transpired!
After years of lies and false love,
Even my family tried to warn me from the start.
How could I have been so blind
To the warning signs that were ever so present?
I kept my promise to be by your side.
Nights filled with romance, tender touches,
Hot baths and massages to take you away
From the stress of this world.
That was until the day
You no longer desired my touch.
I gave my all to make it work.
I gave my heart, my soul, my love.
But in the end, this still wasn't enough.
What I yearned and prayed for went unfulfilled.
The demon I thought I had finally vanquished
Resurfaced with a vengeance after all these years!
Unearthing the memories from the past.
Pain, hurt, suffering
And even the day when Heaven cried!
Time and time and time again
I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul…
Only to feel the cold steel dagger
From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade
Laced with poison dreams and romance
That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.
Love denied once again.
There were many times when I started to leave
Instead, I tried to work it out and make it better.
But one can only do that for so long.
For the sake of my heart and peace of mind…
The time has come when I just
Have to turn and walk away.
Even though you promised you would change.
Instead, it's the same old song
Over and over and over again.
Only to feel the cold steel dagger
From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade
Laced with poison dreams and romance
That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.
Love denied once again.
I am tired of being lonely and feeling this way.
My eyes are finally opened.
I know there is someone out there that will love me
And appreciate all I have to give.
I pray to you, Lord,
For strength and guidance.
For that one special love, you have for me.
This is the life my heart has lived.
Heartbreaks, isolation, starvation,
And yes, an overabundance of love
With no one to pour upon.
This is my testimony.
Don't let it be yours
Where you are left saying:
Time and time and time again
I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul…
Only to feel the cold steel dagger
From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade
Laced with poison dreams and romance
That is meant to kill the rose before it blooms.
Love denied once again.
