I can feel you follow me

You're watching my every move

I know I got too close this time

I scared you off for good

I shall remember the lessons you gave and all the talks we had

I will listen more with my heart as well as my ears

I will pay attention to the rules and not let anyone get close

The last poem is gone without a trace

Just a memory of our mind and a smile on our face

You told me to speak my mind and that is what I am going to do

You hurt me

Damn it made me mad

We were friends

I could count on you

I know you are out searching

Searching for things you will never find

Remember this my friend

Trust in yourself and the creed you live by

For I am stronger and will not cave in

I will not be used and be a doormat again

But if you are so smart and your wisdom so high

Why are we alone and you're as unhappy as I

You know what is in my heart

Without a word being said

So with that I will end this note with only a few more left said

Thank you my guiding light

For shinning so bright

Your friendship I will always treasure

I will pick up the pieces and do as your wise words were told

Remembering all the B.S and the grains of salt

I am the real deal

A real live woman that has feelings it is true

Who shows her heart for all to see

I am here to tell others "I want be a doormat so let me be.

Stop all the bullshit and fuck the fake things."

If you want to be friends that is OK

As for anything else let me be

I gambled and lost

The stakes were too high

Lost love and now friendship

Learned my lesson well

When it comes to matters of the heart

I have really failed

One thing to remember as life goes by

Your creed is your heart

Your belief

Your honor and your life

You are safe with me

Good bye