I don’t understand how you sleep 
How your heart doesn’t pound out of your chest
How your palms don’t sweat 
While your fingertips clutch at nothing. 

I don’t understand how your throat
Isn’t a barren desert
How your barbed tongue forms words
When it should crumble to dust. 

I don’t understand how your eyes 
can be so vacant and far 
When the mirror shows you the
Truth of your character 

I don’t understand what you consider valueless
A way to push without falling
But unravels the safety net under you
That you pretend was never there. 

I wish I could ask
How you fell and when. 
What justifies a deep betrayal 
And the poison sting of your petty desperation 

It’s not my place to ask
I wasn’t the one you betrayed
I’ll keep my distance and safety
But know my teeth are sharper
Than yours could ever hope to be.