I wake up in the night

I wonder if you know?

If you looked into my eyes

Would my fear still show?

I can't look into your eyes

They haunt my sleep

I relive all the pleasure you took

In making me feel cheap

The things you did

I can never escape

That you took pleasure in it

I've known true hate

Disguised as love

Even after all these years

I wake up screaming

Reliving those fears

I'm shaken and crying

On my kitchen floor

Desperate to stay awake

My nightmares knocking at the door

I can't escape them

This would please you, I know

You told and showed me often enough

That my fear made your pleasure grow

How much you enjoyed

Watching me cower

The wrongness of your touch

Won't wash away with a shower

It's deep within

I can't scrub it away

I keep it locked in a box

During the day

At night I can't fight it

In the end, we all must sleep

And I wake up feeling dirty

I wake up, and I weep.