I think I finally figured you out. That thing about you,

The one that drove me so crazy.

Something you can see yourself.

I finally came to understand you.

Why it hurt no matter what you did,

Why I felt like breaking so long,

How deep in the rabbit hole I was.

I gave you all of my heart.

I never questioned why.

I didn't want anything in return, 

but for you to look at me and only me.

I couldn't stop you from looking,

From feeling for others more.

I guess I started becoming boring,

Once I was predictable to you.

Yet you claim you don't need love,

That you can survive on your own.

The way I see it you can't die alone.

We both know you need love.

I don't expect you to admit it.

I am not asking you to see this light.

I just know that after two months,

You already had found someone else.

I am not spiteful, I won't be a brat.

I cannot stand that look you give me.

As if I'm a plague, as if I remind you,

That your happiness was at the cost of mine.

I see you shower her with gifts.

Little store bought trinkets.

I recall the things I bought you were food.

Everything else was handmade.

We didn't buy each other things,

We gave each other our own stuff.

You still use my old bag,

You still wear that homemade scarf.

So I figured you out, my dear.

Your love is a double edged knife.

The painful mind games, I loved,

The late nights we spent awake.

You can go on loving anyone,

And they love you back.

As my heart hardened,

And it won't ever crack.

Now let's see who needs love in their life.

You claim it to be me but think twice.

It's been four months now,

And my heart hasn't changed since that day.

You I see are trying to hold her hand.

She sits in your lap now.

But she doesn't do what I do.

I guess I'm that painful memory.

Now it is all said and done.

Go and have your fun.

Don't pay attention to me in the back.

I have finally figured you out.