Six months back I dreamt of him dying
While my partner rushed to help him in a car.
Some days later I got news his heart was bad
Nightmarish reality started spinning its web.
On every ring of my phone
My heart would come to my mouth.
Every minute every hour
You lived
I hoped for more
A strong will
Stronger man I yet have to see.
That twilight of your operation
My heart stopped with yours for those two minutes
You came back to us
Miraculously unexpected said the doctors
Every beep of your heart on a machine
Gave me peace
Yet…
Riddled me with anxiety.
Day you came back
I thanked God on bended knees
All for nothing
Oh your pain
Lord that agony in your eyes
Not one scream passed your lips
Collapsing
Reviving
Breathing
One
Two
Three... more please more
Counting
Hoping...
Dying hope
Glimmer
Don’t move dad....please don’t
Those needles
Those tubes
Don’t move
Treatments galore, wrong prognosis, mishandling of case
Callous waste of human life.
Today I live with reality
That he has gone forever
His soul merged with God.
And that dream I saw?
It came true just the way I saw it
A agonising déjà vu
I Miss you DAD.
I swear you live in me
Forever.