I never know how to say
My mind has gone away
Turning black from gray
I hate being this way

Whispered confusion
Mixed within delusion
And fearful destitution
Seeking restitution

Gasping for air
Under total despair
Attempting to share
But the words are not there

Fleeting thoughts
Of how we are taught
To take another shot
Whether you make it or not

Give it your best
Be normal, like the rest
Weighing on my chest
Heavily suppressed

These chains bind
Crushing my mind
Memories unassigned
Flashes loudly combined

Unmerciful shame
Stoking the inner flame
Suddenly I know my name
Struggling to reclaim

A slice of sane
Freedom from the pain
Stop the thought train
Striving to explain

But I never know what to say
When my mind will not obey
And every word becomes passé
Fuck! I hate being this way!