My thoughts, sprinkle images throughout the day
Don’t stop, never stop, always in motion
Get up. I have a headache
Oh I have to shit, brush my teeth
Get dressed, what am I gunna wear?
Should I match? Who cares no one looks
Have to shit again. Third time this morning. Something wrong? No don’t worry
I am worried
Everyone looks. No. not true. Okay. Get my books
Is my hair okay? My sweater looks puffy. Who cares it's cold out
I care
Don’t care, you sound like a girl
What’s wrong with wanting to match?
Don’t want to look sloppy
Maybe meet a girl
Doubtful. I’m too shy. Don’t know how to start a conversation
Don’t like to talk about myself
Jot this down
Twenty bucks owed, got to go to bank
That girl's cute, I like her shoes
Back and forth back and forth
From class to room to houses to showers
Up down left right, Shakespeare, English lit 1
Study for math, fuck I hate math, gotta study
Does my hair look okay?
Fuck these steep steps
I’m always tired and out of breath
Too much cigarettes
Too much smoke
Inhale exhale, you’ll be okay
People smoke till they’re eighty
It's just a myth
No it's not people have died younger
Ah who cares I'm young
It matters
Mom depressed, dad sick
Cancer
Brother's okay
Everyone will be okay
No they wont they’re all gunna die
Just like me
So who cares? Live it up. Go get fucked up
No don’t get fucked up you gotta be responsible
Tires flat. Old car. Never works. One day get another one
Shit. Study study. Read As you like it. Shakespeare.
Read Beowulf, Young, Goodman, Brown, Poe, Milton
Dryden, read read read. Study. All depressed. No
Not true. Love nature, dislike humans
Just like me
No not true
Not all of them
Some are good
Some are beautiful
Some don’t know it
Download new CD
Animal collective, mates of state, Tilly and the Wall
Fun, happy, takes me away
Kills the pain
Nobody likes them, get a grip
Doesn’t matter, makes you happy
Does matter
No
Gray sky, rain again
Snow on floor for months
Nice day today, short sleeves
After a while, gets rainy again
I’m okay. I feel a lot better
No I’m still a mess, got to call that counselor.
Gotta call my doc
Get pills
Take them
Swallow them
Calm down
In and out and in and out
One step to the next
And into the bed
Wake up, puke again
Lost a few pounds, it's normal
No it isn’t
Yes it is
You’re not healthy
I'll be fine
I wish I could talk about this to a girl
Lay on a bed
Watch a movie
Hold hands
Cuddle
Single/months
Who cares? You’ll meet someone when you least expect it
Rest your head
Lye the nausea away
Dream, happy
Sleep
Wake up
Nausea
Repeat