I don’t know why I am feeling this way

all I know is it isn’t good

I feel like running a knife over my wrist

Or mixing some medicine with alcohol

Maybe even jumping out of a window

I know these aren’t solutions

But I did try talking

and that didn’t seem to help

Besides it is not anyone’s responsibility

Apart from family that don’t care

They don’t even know

Where I just moved too

They don’t know about any of it

Now the tears start

I am alone

And let’s face it who would want me in there life

I am just alone...

Have been most of my life

So why is it such a problem now?

I guess I was shown another way

Of how it could be

And I was happy

But I screwed it up

So now is my turn to walk away

Take small steps

Work towards what I really want

And build it for myself

Alone