Never have I ever, nor will I ever. . . A firsthand look into the pain of a young girl's first love and her corresponding first heartbreak. Life is messy, and all you can do is pick up the pieces, brush the dust off of your shoulders, and move on.

Never have I ever been in love at first sight . . . And never again.

Never have I ever had feelings for a coworker . . . And never again.

Never have I ever adored a man so that I thought of him constantly . . . And never again.

Never have I ever been fond of the same guy for more than six months . . . And never again.

Never have I ever fallen for someone who is eight years my elder . . . And never again.

Never have I ever gotten my mom’s blessing to date a man so much older than me . . . And never again.

Never have I ever had the nerve to tell a boy I fancied him . . . And never again.

Never have I ever asked a guy to be my Valentine . . . And never again.

Never have I ever asked a fella to dinner . . . And never again.

Never have I ever had a date been planned then cancelled . . . And never again.

Never have I ever been told I was "like the little sister he’d never had" . . . And never again.

Never have I ever read a text message that made me instantly burst into tears . . . And never again.

Never have I ever had my heart broken so quickly and thoroughly . . . And never again.

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Never again will I be willing to make the first move.

Never again will I want to impress somebody so badly.

Never again will I trust the signs, regardless of how clear they may seem.

Never again will I lay my heart on the line and tell him how I feel.

Never again will I be so quick to trust someone.

Never again will I get a chance with what can only be described as my first love.

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Never again will I allow myself to be so hurt by someone. 

Never again will I refuse to believe that I am good enough.

Never again will I let my happiness depend on somebody else.

Never again will I forget that I deserve love just as much as anyone else.

Never again will I cancel plans with my best friend for a guy.

Never again will I get involved with a guy without thinking I am the prize.

Never again will I let my heart belong to somebody who can't appreciate it.

Never will I cease to remember that HE is the one who missed out on an amazing opportunity.

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