Within I feel like I've lost a battle I didn't even know that I was fighting.A war for the carnal desires and attention of my wife. I'm the one who took myself out of the fight right from the start. More than just my physical inabilities have gotten in the way. I stare at the same screen now that I've stared at so much before that I've allowed to get in the way. It's all been a choice, and it's all been mine. But not her,...

Failure Absolute I want to be destroyed. Eliminated from history. My mistakes wiped clean from the slate. Complete destruction of my existence. No uttering of my name. No memories left behind. The world, a brighter place. My wife, happy. My son not at risk of my horrible problems. My daughter with a father who can actually raise and protect her. Only three things I have ever done right in this life. Choosing a good wife a...